I’m not sure where to begin, other than to say my life has completely spiraled out of control. And I am beginning to feel too weak to bear this on my own. I have a child and I am trying to keep it together for her, but when u have feelings of despair it is so so hard. Right now I am in therapy and will be seeing my doctor soon to possibly prescribe me for anti depressants. I am taking steps in all the right directions to try and get better. I just don’t know if this is even working. My daughters father, whom I have known for 10 years and consider him to be the love of my life, has pushed me to the side and is now trying to be with someone else. And even better, I feel as if he is rubbing it in my face. Maybe this is my karma, because I treated him bad last year when we went thru a rough patch. But he is the only man I will ever want and without him I feel like I am withering into nothing. I cry every day, I am so depressed it feels like I am drowining in my sorrows. But I don’t want to end things, I’m trying to stay here. My daughter loves me and I love her. Its just the pain…it hurts so bad.
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I understand your pain so much…
It sounds like you’re really trying, and I give you kudos for that! I know it’s hard, but don’t give up…if you’re prescribed antidepressants that might help you out a lot. And it sounds like your daughter will give you strength and a reason to keep fighting! My family is the only reason why I’m still here too…
Plus one, also here for my family (mum and son)…being depressed and suicidal and a mother is so hard, you have all the guilt on top of the thoughts themselves, I speak from experience and I feel for you.