I was 17

I’ve always thought about suicide since I was 6. Been molested by a few people until I was 11 years old. So it made me really suicidal since a young age. When I was 17 I was disowned by my dad’s side and he left when I was 8 years old. I was thinking of ways to kill myself because it would be hard in the group home to get a way with it. So I came up with one that I thought would work.  My school had a freeway above it so one morning I was dropped at school ran up the hill and walked into the second lane. I was hit and put into a coma. That really made me upset because I couldn’t kill myself right. Today I’m a whole different person. Took me 7 years after that to stop thinking of ending my life. Then last year I had a brain hemorrhage and I realized I wasn’t ready to go. This past year has been the best even though I lost everything and had to move back to my parents.  I talk to people often about suicide because I can put myself in their shoes. I take a medicine that stopped my ups and downs. It took me over 16 years to find one that works for me. I’m always here for anyone that wants to talk. Thank you for reading my story