I’ve been more depressed these days, listening to sad songs such as;
Youth – Daughter
Who you are – Jessie J
To build a Home – The Cinematic Orchestra
Before You Start Your Day – Twenty One Pilots
Those songs really get to me. They have a huge background, because I used to listen to them two or three years ago when my life was really going downhill.
I’ve met some friends online, but two of them lied to me. But not just a little white lie.. It was like huge ones for both of them.
One of them – Named Lauren – She lied about getting raped, getting pregnant, then being stabbed.. She lied about being depressed, suicidal, and all that stuff.. She made me feel bad for her, and waste my depressed and suicidal life to pay attention to her fake and made up life.
The other one – Named Jennifer – She lied about being suicidal and depressed, she also lied about getting raped, and many more lies. She also ruined my life, making me more depressed with her “problems”.
You guys didn’t know this.. But I lost all of my grandparents at the age of two, so I don’t really have backup if one of my parents died. All my aunts and uncles are so rude to me, they don’t understand me, they just do whatever they want to me. They laugh at me, they stare at me, I can’t stand them.
It’s hard to hold on when there is nothing to grasp onto. I know if I died, my parents would be devastated, as well as my brother and the rest of my family. I don’t really understand why they would miss such a mistake like me.. Oh well.
If anyone of you could help me out, I would appreciate it very very much. Thank you all, I love you.