fucking urges to self destruct and self mutilate are so strong today….I can’t give in…come on, get it together Gianna, almost 4 weeks clean, don’t ruin it now
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How did you gain that 4 weeks? What’s been working for you?
Pretty much just distraction, distraction, and more distraction…but lately the normal distractions, such as music or making rock jewelry isn’t helping. I’m trying to tell myself, “don’t break the record now…”
u fucking got this! ur stronger than the blade n razor. if im holding off on shaving this bushy ass beard u can hold off cutting yoself or druggin it uppp
lol, never tried drugs…don’t plan on it, but sometimes I wonder what it feels like to be high.
Beards ftw, by the way.
I refer you to the song Ellie Goulding–High For This remix. I will say this–there are some moments in life where you NEED to be high(weed high not heroine high) but don’t let me encourage u down that road haha. On dat beard lyfe. got dat facial hurr for dayzzz.
I like some of Ellie Goulding’s songs that have been remixed. One of my favorites is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhCfxBULO4w.
Unfortunately the times I could have used a good high, I didn’t have the necessary drugs available….although I am being prescribed Xanax. Maybe that’ll do something
thats def a cool remix…i like i like. the one i recommended isnt actually a remix but a cover though. its originally done by canadian artist The Weeknd, whom i fucking love, but her version not only rivals his but i believe to be a bit better. her voice is so chill n relaxing–its nice.
yeah i mean xanax could always do the trick. i think itll give you more a body buzz than anything else but if youre that desperate or lookin for a quick change of pace than that’ll do it. like i said though don’t start doing drugs cuz some random canadian bearded guy on the internet subliminally told you to through an ellie goulding song. lawl. how old are u btw?
lol nah I wouldn’t go do drugs just for the hell of it. I like to be semi-control of my mind xD
I’m currently 20. Next year I can drink legally….hmm, that presents some interesting opportunities
ha if you were in canada you’d have been able to drink for two years already XD just come up here and get a head start on the whole drinking game so by the time u hit 21 ur already a veteran. if there was a poison id recommend, id recommend you pick up it’d be drinking. love ma beer n ma vodka. some ppl have coffee with two cream two sugars. i get mine with two vodkas n two rums lol. if you weren’t awake before–you are after >_< nothin screams im guna have a great day like that tipsy flow in the morning.
Haha awesome, I’m actually maybe 10 minutes away from the Canadian/American border. My mother hates beer. I never had it, I normally just sip a little wine during family get-togethers.
LOL coffee with two vodkas and rum xD I’m actually drinking coffee now.
Tons of Taylor Swift – “Mean”, when I am in that mood haha. I know that’s totally different from the song you posted but I find listening to Disturbed and stuff makes me more likely to repeat. Sometimes I get a pink pen and write into my arm instead, things like “never again” or “trust no one.” Wish you luck though.
thanks. strangely enough angry music doesn’t make me angry or want to cut more…it just gets all the pent up darkness out in a musical way.
wish you luck too. I’ve tried writing on my arms and legs. doesn’t do much for me, but I’m glad it helps you in a sense
Haha thanks, regular pen doesn’t work for me, only pink pens for some reason >.> Gotta find ways to cope I guess.
Hey, to each their own 🙂 I would prefer a red pen/marker, just to symbolize the color of blood :I
But, if pink works for you, I’m glad 😀
well bust out the ole smirnoff 40 and u know what to do (; i guarantee good times shall be had by you and the coffee. smirnoff vodka is my prescription to all things boring whether that be a doctors appointment or babysitting the neighbor’s runts. really the true way to spell FUN is VODKA haha.
but in all seriousness thats awesome. drive on up to canada and get ur party hat on. whereabouts are you along the line? easter or wester?
Haha, I’m not much for partying, I prefer sipping coffee on a cold, dark night whilst playing resident evil or watching a good zombie movie 🙂
I live near Niagara Falls 🙂 So if I had ever wanted to go out in a place with some scenery, the falls would be it.