I feel like I’ll never emotionally connect with anybody. I have changed quite a bit in high school, since many of my friends moved away after elementary. I’ve become more cynical and depressive since then. People just don’t like a bitter personality. Also, admittedly, I’m lazy, but not couch potato lazy: I rarely watch TV because the news is depressing and reality TV is just a distraction from reality, so I either go on the computer or sleep. Many see this as a flaw and something that should be changed, but I think that this is who I am. I believe that life is pointless and can’t determine how long I’ll be able to hold up before my ambition completely collapses. I wish I could just curl up on the ground and die. Of course, the people I tell this to keep telling me that I need help. If help comes in the form of some antidepressants, I’ve already tried it. I’ve tried therapy and it hasn’t helped.
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First off you are NOT pathetic. You are a good person and fully capable of making some changes in your life to make your life worth while. Well it is true a bitter persnality and being cynical are 2 personality traits that will push a lot of people away. You need to work on coming out of that.
Life is not that bad. There is lots of good things you can do with your life and having friends and relationships with other people is one of them > some people to share in good tims with. Try to be more cheery and optimistic. Try to make some new friends and bring out the good side of you when you are around them. Dont let your ambitions collapse. Find some goals in life that you want to achieve and then pursue them. and find people who have similar gols and make friends with them. Im goig to tell you the truth Life is not always eazy. But life is what you make of it. You have to start making choices to make things better for yourself. You sound like you are young. There is a whole world out there to explore. things to try.
thats the point to life to find what you love to do and then do it. Try helping out other people that will make you feel better about yourself. I hope things work out for you
Im here to chat if you want
Hello there. Just wanted to say that you so not sound pathetic at all. I’m not the type of person who says: “You need to do this and this and this, and you will feel great”. Kinda find that misleading. I believe that real connections and time, help the most. So if you want to chat about anything, feel free to message me. Thanks