It’s like some kind of sick movie. I was all ready to go through with my plan tomorrow and be done with it all, but today at work it was like he knew what I was thinking and was trying to save my life. He just kept making me laugh, but that’s easy considering how I am around him. We played around with each other like we were 5 years old, spinning chairs and all. After work he even drove me to my car cause it was parked farther away. I’ve had a crush on him for less than a month, and as crazy as it is, he is the sole reason I think about when I think about why I’m not gonna go through with this plan, at least for tomorrow. And it scares me cause now I have to think about the rest of this week, and possibly next week, when I had dismissed all thoughts of the future beyond tomorrow.
My feelings are such an oxymoron right now. I’m listening to happy love songs as I type this on this damn suicide site, for crying out loud. Thanks, Jake. See what you’ve done?
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The Universe wants you to stay around. I’m happy for you that somebody has entered your life and given you purpose to look in to the days you had dismissed.