Tomorrow will be my last day here. I Have purchased all my supplies for the Helium bag method. Thank you all for your posts and comments. The information on this site has been very helpful. I am not terminally ill but I have ruined my life. I have hurt everything that I loved in this world. I am ready to leave so I can stop hurting those I love. I have two young children and a beautiful wife, all of which I have hurt. Good Bye
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Do you feel invisible to your family?
I have been editing my suicide note for the past week but don’t have the courage to actually finish my life.
Are you sure your wife and children won’t be hurt by your suicide, have you spoken to your wife about how you feel concerning how you’ve ruined your life and about hurting them, she may not share your opinions, surely worth doing before taking such a step as ending it.
if you loved them, you wouldn’t cause them this pain. so please dont, it gets so much better.
I’m sure they will hurt for a while but once i’m not here at least they can move on with their lives and find happiness.
There have been people on this site who have had a parent kill themselves and they don’t get over it especially if they were young when it happened, it affects them with questions of whether they did anything which contributed to the suicide, they wonder what that parent was like and how different their life would be if it hadn’t of happened, they have a permanent hole in their lives, please think about it.
There are other sites set up to help bereaved people from suicide and it shows the effects it has on others, my main worry is for the children, take time out to look at this, I’m sorry for your problems, but be clear on this, it will affect your children deeply.
Thank you for your concern but my children are young they are only 7 and 4. In a few years they will have forgotten about me and their lives will be fine. Most people don’t even have memories from when they were that young. I’m sure they will be fine. They are the only things in this world I have ever loved. Leaving them is the only sadness I have about tomorrow, but i know they will be fine and in the end better off.
I do believe differently, they will remember and will ask questions; if you leave a note, I hope it mentions the reasons and that your wife stresses in later life that your decision was purely your own and that you loved them and regretted leaving them. I wish I had children, it is one of the great dissappointments in my life and at 46 and with medical problems I will never know the joy of having children of my own as you have. Please consider these comments during the next few hours, I hope you change your mind.
You aren’t listening to any of the advice people here are bothering to tell you. You don’t care about them, and you damn sure don’t care about your children! You only care about yourself! If you didn’t you’d be thinking long and hard about how bad you’d be hurting those around you. Stop living for yourself; live for those you love. If you truly love your 7 and 4 year-old, then live for their well-being.
Asshole. I was 7 once, and I have vivid memories of how my parents were like back then. If my father or mother decided to kill themselves, I would fucking remember it today. How the hell can you sit there and type that they wouldn’t remember you? You’re their father for Christ sake, how wouldn’t they remember having a father?
wrong34… Home videos. Your children will watch videos and see pictures of you when they are older. Your wife will answer every question that they ask. They will remember.
He doesn’t give a fuck about them. He only cares about what he wants to do. I wouldn’t bother wasting anymore of your time on this pathetic wretch! He’s going to ruin their fucking lives because *he* doesn’t want to do anything more than feel sorry for himself. It gets better, but only if you make it. Nothing is going to change because you feel bad about something you did back whenever! Make up for it. Putting a bag over your head is a fucking copout! If you were alone, I would feel differently. But you brought kids into this world. This isn’t about you anymore, you selfish piece of shit. Your life is now to make sure that your kids have a decent shot in this world. Not ruining any chance they may have by killing yourself.
Thank you all for your advice. It will be well considered.
Not it isn’t. You’re going to do it, I bet you might even smile as your drift off to death, knowing that you just told everyone who cared about you to go fuck themselves by doing it. You really are pathetic.
Thank you for your opinion TwistedSpace.
Well said, he’s going to fuck up his children’s lives instead of dealing with his problems for their sake, when you have children who rely on you then suicide is different, at that point is it is selfish, whatever wrong34 says it will be detrimental to their lives.
Mmhm. I feel bad for his children, especially if he goes through with this. Not for him, though.
I totally agree.
They’ve got a point, wrong34.
All you guys are doing by attacking him is making him feel even more worthless and stupid than he already does. You’re pushing him into a corner and he will no longer be able to fathom another way out. Why do you have to become so fucking angry at someone who is obviously hurting so badly? Grow a brain.
Yeah, wrong34, they are correct that your children will suffer. But you don’t deserve the bashing you are receiving. It is understandable that you would feel that they’d be better off without you; you’re depressed, that’s how depression works, it’s an illness. But for your children’s sake, fight and fight hard to beat it. It’ll be the best gift you can ever give them.
I think it’s because of the emotional situation of the children that are involved here and who will be affected if he does end his life but depression is an illness, you’re right there. I hope wrong34 realises the depth of feeling here about his decision and seeks help for his problems and remembers his children are better off with him alive and feeling good about his life, it truly is the best gift he can give them.