I get told I’m fat. I weigh 130 with a height of 5’6.5″ I now eat small portions, try not to eat anything in between meals, and I go to bed at night and dream of the food I could eat. I get up from the table and feel so hungry. I want to eat so much more but I can’t let myself eat. I have a congressional debate meet this friday-saturday. We can’t wear bracelets…. I will be so vulnerable I’m not looking forward to it. I got told today that I work too hard and need to stop trying so hard. I study at least an hour for tests, do all my homework, research for debate, and write what I have to for debate. I also have play practice after school. I’m not getting to bed until about 1:00 and get up at 5:00. I’m constantly drifting on class. I don’t have money for energy drinks or coffee. I need to do what I do so that I can get into a good college. Im in;
Youth Teaching Youth
GSA
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Drama
Speech
Debate
Theater
I need to do these because they all come with scholarship opportunities. I have to work harder because my GPA is a 2.9 instead of the at least 3.7 that I need. My mum says I’m slacking and my dad says I can do better. I can’t live on 4 hours of sleep for the rest of my life. At least not without caffeine. I wish I could get a job but you need a licence to get a job and I can’t get my licence because the test costs money. I do the activities I’m in for almost free because I’m on free lunch at my school. I’m a junior who can’t get things right anymore. I can’t take the pressure. I can’t take the stress. I can’t take keeping my life a secret. I love her and I’m not even allowed to say it. I can’t take it anymore. I’m so lost and confused that I have no clue what to even do anymore except what my parents bark at me like I’m a servant. Who knows maybe that’s all I am to them.
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I like food to cause im like human and as for girls guy like a shape like human. Do one good meal a day
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I know exactly how you feel with the whole parents thing….its really frustrating when they can’t see that you are struggling and need a break, some family support, anything so you don’t feel like that. I have a super busy life with hardly any sleep too, and it truly does suck. And I hardly eat at all….so I know how you feel…and I guess what I’m trying to say, is try not to be so hard on yourself. You’ve got this. Just keep up the hard work. It may pay off later in life, I hope so
Dude…smh…I wish there was one guy who was responsible for this anorexic standard of beauty we have in this country. I would drive to his fucking house. Board up his doors and windows and hold hands with all the beautiful women of the world as we burned the house to the ground.
As a man let me fill you in on some secrets. We are atracted to slim stomachs, tight butts, and big breasts. We idolie these things out of nothing more than sexualaity. What we really want is a woman who’s beauty shines from within dear. We want a women who is funny, smart, and above all CONFIDANT! We want a woman like this to fall in love with and spend our lives with, not just have sex with and throw away like a napkin.
Dear god woman, please, please, PLEASE, don’t let these fucking vermin make you belive you are anything but a strong, intelligent, BEAUTIFUL, woman, with whom any man would kill to be with. Don’t let these swine win by starving yourself. EAT! Nurture that gorgious body and mind! Eat and be content that all REAL men lust for after you and the petty, shallow, and stupid, GIRLS who try to make you feel ugly are just mad that you are everything they can never be and are only desired sexually!
I’m gay or lesbian if ya wanna put it that way so I’m not exactly looking to impress the dudes…… It’s not just people at school it’s my family as well.
“Don’t eat that Cayt or you’ll gain more weight” it’s comments like that that I hear all the time
you’re certainly not fat!! You’re perfect the way you are. “Normal” weight for your height is up to 150lbs. You’re right in the middle. Don’t let jerks make you feel like there is something wrong with you when there isn’t.
And you may have better luck raising your GPA if you drop 2 or 3 of your extracurricular activities. You’ll have more time for yourself which is VERY important. You NEED sleep to function, and teens need about 9 hours of sleep a night to be ready for the schoolday. Just my advice. Sometimes less is better. It might give you the focus that you need, WHERE you need it, instead of all over the board like you are now.
Keep the activities that you enjoy the most. You’ll be more likely to succeed at something that you actually enjoy doing.
Also, don’t starve yourself. EAT. Your body and your brain need those calories and nutrients, especially at your age. (^_^) And even if you do gain a little weight, who cares. I’m fat, and I don’t care what people think about it. You shouldn’t let them get to you. You’re amazing the way you are.
Thank you all for the support. I’m not exactly starving myself I’m just not eating a lot. I eat two small meals a day so that’s okay isn’t it?
Since you’re growing, and because of your height, you need at least 1500 calories a day. 40% carbs, 15-20% fat and 35% protein. Definitely don’t consume less than 1500 or you’re putting yourself at risk for nutrition deficiencies.
I already have a ton of deficiencies. What’s another pill to take every morning, afternoon, and night time? To be honest it’s just that many more pills I can take when I reach that point again of overwhelming pain, stress, and overall when I’ve given up.
Being skinny is over rated I’ve been anorexic and over weight and I was actually happier when I was over weight. Not to mention the fact I actually looked better when I was bigger. At least I looked like a girl then and had boobs.