I have an abusive partner, rarely physical abuse. It’s abuse which is carefully engineered to hurt me from within. Emotional abuse is the worst form I believe. It destroys your mind and leaves you with numbness. Everyday I suffer, in one way or another. I feel myself getting closer and closer to the point of no return. The one thing keeping me here is my son. I’m beginning to feel even he would be better without all of this. Maybe he can then have a happy childhood.
I have no family, I have no friends, this account and post was created in secret. I know it’s abuse, but I can’t break away from it. I’ve gone from one abusive relationship into another except I’m trapped in this one. Grant me strength to break away.
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Does you state have an ACT shelter Abuse, Consuling, Treatment center, listen what you need to do is pack you and your son’s important documents up ssn cards, birth certificates, medical records, a few clothes, and get to one asap. Even if your partner is not hitting you doesn’t mean he wont ever attack maybe even kill you and your son.
When you get there get a fucking restraining order against him asap. Cause let me tell you dont do it he will and he will follow and call the police saying you were stocking him. Call act from your own private phone, Pack your shit when hes away, pick your son up from school and go. Im all for suicide but I dont have kids to worry about, the least you can do is protect yourself and son.
I understand you very well. Well, in fact I was in the same situation, but not as a wife of such abuser – I was his daughter. So we lived, I, my mother, my younger brother and my younger sister, under his steel reigning over our lives. Everyday was the same, he was back from work at 5pm every single day and at the same moment the gates of hell opened. I won’t mention much of the things he did to us, but you can’t even imagine how cruel man he was and he, unfortunately, still is. Now he’s living with another of his “whores”. It will be 3 years since we kicked his ass through the window to never let him go back here.
It was at the moment when, I can say it clearly and being totally honest and serious, that it was when he tried to kill my mother by throwing at her heavy trolley with the shopping things, around 15kg. He targeted at the head. If he hadn’t missed she’d have been dead right now. My mother had a bank loan to pay off at that time. The bank loan for my beloved father’s attorney, ’cause he had made pretty troubles to us, I even ended up in the foster family for a week at the age of 12. The first year after he had been gone for good was kind of hard. We had very little money, but my life became more stable. However, because of everything I had experienced before, I started to struggle with depersonalization and derealization. Till now I’m doing it, I do it every single day.
In the next few years I’m gonna seek for the justice. I’m gonna take him to the court and pay for everything he has ever done to me, my siblings and my loving mother.
Don’t let your son end up just like me. It’s horrible thing, not to know who you are or where you are.
Nobody has to stay in an abusive relationship. Id leave and start over somewhere else
It has been my observation that women often pass up the better guys for the shit out there.
No one deserves to be treated so cruelly in a relationship, relationships are based off of love and trust and 99 other things but one shouldn’t be pain. You need to get out of there. Hundreds of women die every year from abusive relationships and it never fully reaches them that they could have gotten out before it was too late.