I’m not sure how to put this in words. today my last family member in my life said he didn’t wanna hear ne more “excuses” y my life sucks. and to me that’s just like the rest of the world. have enuf and turn away. i have a beautiful daughter. i promised her id stay with her since I’m all she has. but couple weeks ago i got caught up with a joint. and now cps all up me. my lights and water will b cut off in a couple weeks and i have no way to put heat in my house. so cps will take her from me. this wonderful god has taken everything and everyone from me. he has shown he will take my kid too. i can’t handle that. i wanna be there to watch her grow, she’s 4. But i can’t loose her to the system . she is better than living in a foster home out of a trash bag. but knowing the outcome I’m starting to pack things up. i wanna make things simple on my friend.
I’ve fought my whole life for everything and I’m tired. i miss my husband. he always was my right hand. i just dunno wat to do. but i have been sitting in my house alone for a week with no one to talk to. i have had to rehadh his death in great detail and it wasn’t easy.
i can’t do this no one cares, they told me.
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I wish there was something I could say to make things better, but I’m at a loss. I am, however, sad to hear how you are suffering. I do care. But that doesn’t solve things. Perhaps it helps your heart to know that I care.
Hey, let’s talk with me eh? we can talk about anything you want here… I’ll be listening to you.
If you get back on your feet and show them you are competent and able to take care of yourself and your child you can get your kid back. When I was 15 my mom tried to kill herself by ODing off pills, since my dad already was dead they took me off her and I went to a group home for awhile. Eventually they let me go back, I was there 8 months or so. I’m sure you can get assistance to help you keep your lights and water on. If the worst does happen, if you hold on and get back on your feet you will see your kid grow up.
Lets say i pay the lites and water i still have no heat. And nothing like a week alone with no one calling or knocking to make a girl learn her place. i left my husband two years ago qnd almost everyday been hell. my not bf gone and that’s all i had. how can this get better? And nope a job really won’t help
You can get heating assistance through welfare. My state has something called LIHEAP I am sure yours does as well. The fact you have a child in the house helps your cause that much more. I understand about things not getting better, and feeling hopeless. I am just trying to help you not lose your kid, group homes are horrible in my op. Every day is hell for me as well because I’m a mentally ill train wreck of a human. What would make you feel better? I’m sure you can find another love out there.