Is it sad that the only reason I’m still living is for my pets?
Is it sad that I steal my mothers pain medication?
Is it sad that I sleep with a football player who I have no feelings for?
Is it sad that whenever people ask me if I’m okay I avoid the question?
Is it sad that every day I dream about ending my life?
Is it sad that the only response I give people is “I don’t care”?
Is it sad that I’ve drawn everyone away?
Is it sad that my father doesn’t even know how to spell my name?
Is it sad that I’m so desperate for help that I come to this website?
Is it?
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I am only alive for my cats. I don’t care about anyone but my cats. If i didn’t have them, i would be dead now. I don’t think it is sad. It just is.
I am alive because of my 2 german shepherd puppies. I also avoid the question about if I am okay or not. I also would love to end my life, but I just don’t have the courage to.. I use the respone, “I don’t care,” EVERYDAY, very often. I was invisible in the first place so I guess my family just walks over me and my “friends” do the same.. But I am glad to see you on this website. I view this website as a cry for help toward strangers. Some actually care, some don’t.
Most don’t, it’s rare to find someone who does.
True. I had one on here. I think the username was Nias.
Even if you’re lucky enough to find someone, they can’t stay with you forever. You eventually lose them.
Yes. I just tried to find Nias. I can’t find any updates… If you don’t mind me asking. What type of pain meds are you stealing from your mother?
I honestly don’t know, her doctor prescribed them to her after her surgery.
It’s pretty common. Similar to stealing money from your parents but a little more severe. I used to steal money and pills from the medicine cabinet. Now I have my own that makes my mop around the house thinking about suicide. No job. No college. No freedom. No friends. No life.
*I have to go to bed. I will be reading/replying tomorrow.**
She really has no use for them. I mostky have trouble sleeping at night and if it’s too difficult to sneak a few pills I grab a beer from the fridge. It isn’t healthy, but it helps.
Hi Andersen, I’m still here. Are you still wearing that invisibility cloak, it’s such a shame when those around us don’t see our pain and continue their happy lives which makes it even more difficult to talk to them but people on SP are here to listen. You said that you were going to talk to the girl who was causing you difficulty, did you speak to her, what else is happening to you?
It is sad, but not in a way that is pathetic as is used in your questions. It’s sad because of the pain you’re in. I’m only living for my dear cat, I would steal pain pills whenever available, I avoid those same questions and dream of those same endings. Well, not exactly the same, I’m sure, but if you’re feeling alone, you might be surprised at how many share similar thoughts and actions.
Staying alive for your pets is noble, I think. They certainly need you and love you unconditionally. Why not tell us about your pets as a positive distraction? I’d love to hear about them.
A dog, I’ve had since I was 7. A rabbit, I’ve had since I was 14. And a cat, I’ve had since I was 9. Honestly, they’re all like my best friends. They’ve been there through everything.
You have quite the pack of lovelies there. I feel the same about my cat that I’ve had since I was 7. She’s 15 now and is always there for me. Give all your animals an extra pet and try to think of them when the pain won’t stop. Maybe it could help. Best wishes to you.