Hello. I have just signed up here so first of all, a big hello to you all and thanx for reading this message. I have been contemplating ending all of this for a while as i just cant hack life anymore. I have been diagnozed with bi-polar disorder and left my wife last year in a mania phase. I recently tried to patch things up with her but am not sure if its gonna work or not and to be honest if it doesnt i dont know what i would do. I have a 6 year old son yet i believe he will be better off without me. My mood swings and just general lack of fatherly know how has left me hating myself. I have no friends and no job and live in a foreign country with no family. I cant hack it nymore. I have been contemplating taking about 15 lormetazepam pills and burning some coal before hand in a small room so i sleep first and die from the fumes later without havin to smell too much the nasty smell. Will 15 pills knock me out and the carbon monoxide kill me if i did it?
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First of all, I’m so sorry that this is happening to you 🙁 that sucks.
BUT, please listen to me on this. I don’t leave your kid behind. My mom suddenly died a couple of months ago. Even though I’m 10 years older than your son, I still think about her every day, regretting the things I said to her, regretting not doing more with her. Don’t make your kid go through that. Life sucks, I get that. Some here might say I get that more than most. But you have to push through it. You have to beat this. If not for yourself, then do it for your little boy. Because losing a parent too soon is horrible beyond words.
It’s a risk, it will probably not be enough coal and might leave you brain damaged instead of dead.