My little brother was in an accident tonight. Was thrown from the truck. Yes, there was alchol involved and he is a minor but that is not the big issue for me right now.
He wanted me to come get him and not my dad. When I told my dad where I wanted to go he told me if I went to get him I would get kicked out of our house. Im so torn and so depressed. I can’t be the big sister I need to be because fear of getting kicked out. I really just […]
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September 2014
This 60 second video made me burst out into tears and change my entire perspective on humanity. It’s amazing how pure some people’s hearts are. PLZ WATCH!
Made Me Cry https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6KNCkuUOwoQ
^ this video is made by a youtuber that I do not support
not on any topic, but how many other people on this website are from Los Angeles?
You ever feel so empty that you begin to suck yourself into this abyss? You wish you could blame them and sometimes you do; but there’s always that tiny little voice that reminds you that it’s actually your fault, that you did this to yourself. And you know that voice is a LIE; you scream it to yourself everyday that that voice is trying to push you past the point of no return, but the voice sounds so right that eventually you think of the nearby overpass and wonder if it would hurt if you fell. And the most stupid thing about all this is […]
I miss you. Like hell.
I think that all humans are essentially ‘evil’, and by that, I mean selfish, among other commonly presumed negative things. Generally, I also believe that people are submissive and ignorant. I don’t think I’m really that different, but I’m aware of my own shortcomings. Why keep living when humans don’t care for one another, and when love is just a temporary high? I know my purpose in life is to work for people and receive happiness from making money, and live a life that I had no choice to experience, nor can I live a life I want, for I want nothing. I don’t even […]
So there’s this woman I *REALLY* like. We have a ton of things in common, too. It only sucks that I met her a month and a half ago. I feel like I’ve been there through her entire life — I wish I had been there though her life. It would make how I feel about her a bit more rational.
Ugh, I feel weird about liking her. I as I said, it’s only been a month since I met her. I saw this picture of her, and I swear to the gods above it was love at first sight for me. I wanted to know […]
‘Something bEAuTiFul My Hero’
I know I overwhelmed
Pure seven years all I’ve never felt
The only thing that’s beautiful
Is that I’m already dead
Zero two zero, waiting for Hiro
It’s going to blow, never adorn in my robe
True law is all I’ve even spoke
It’s not a love story, it’s a sad one
There’s no plan
There’s nothing I can
The earth keeps
My cage thirteen
I can’t untie me. Uh, oh…
I feel tired. And emotionless. If I can’t feel joy, fine, I’ll choose pain as a close second. Most times I have to smoke or drink in order to feel that pain. It’s almost cathartic.
I go about my days wondering why the fuck I’m still here. The way I think, the way I do things just never seem to match up with how the world works. My personality isn’t exactly the most pleasant which holds me back in almost everything, including job opportunities and relationships. It scares me. I’m not doing anything, not contributing anything… not enjoying any part of this fucked up sedentary lifestyle. Let’s […]
before my deployments started i was good for 80k plus a year i was not teh most liked guy in my workplace but I did ok. Teh war taught me to really appreciate what I have and to treat my “clients differently to appreciate their human qualities and understand it wasnt my job to make them miserable instead it was my job to ensure they were safe and in custody. You see I was a Correctional Officer, and an MP. i was my institutions go to guy i worked OT 6 to 8 months a year solid 16 ours a day 7 days a week. […]
hey im new .
im emily and im always feeling lonly and i did stop cutting cuz it wont do nothing . I have so much feelings bottled up in me and i dont knoe who to tell bc mostly people dont really care but i found this site . My voice well be heared and thats all i really wanted so if u need help or anything im here for u and everyone else . So i guess go follow me on instagram @emily.guilbert .
Bye .
probably gonna sound stupid or whiney or that i should mind my own business but this place is for me to get my emotions out right. so hats what im going to do.this isn’t aimed at anyone person in particular. im just torn up about a post on here
i felt better this last so many days i thought what i have been saying was true. but was it. i mean how come he had to wait nearly about hour for a reply, no one even tried, i replied too late what if i could of helped what if he’s dead.not a single person. […]
cutting and starving and breaking hearts and wanting to be accepted into someone elses heart
these are my only actions that i can comprehend
and they are all so hard to do
and i kinda want to die
but i wont
fear holds me back
and tori pushes me foward
and nelson holds me back again
so i just sit here
cutting
and not eating
for
another
week
I know a lot of people ask for “peaceful” ways to commit suicide, but honestly as this point I don’t care. I just want to die… anyone have thoughts on antifreeze? I can’t take it anymore
I don’t know why, I told my wife that I hate her. I do t hate her at all, it’s just easier to push people away so taking your own life will be easier. As I’m writing this I’m looking for a long enough extension cord in my garage so that I can hang myself. I’m going to make it easy on my wife and call the police before I kick the stool out from under me so that they find me and not her. I’m not an abusive husband, I work very hard to provide for my wife and son. I just think it […]
If anyone takes the time to read this I really do appreciate it.
Well I feel as if the best place to start is as a child in my childhood I was a last born child having two brothers older than I my oldest being fathers one and only care and the second my mothers I wouldn’t say I was abused by them or ignored but when I tell other people about what happened with me they seem to think I was it was just stuff like my brothers do something they don’t receive punishment and I get the world thrown upon me and such and […]
It’s been a few weeks since I have posted, and have come to the conclusion that it’s everyone else that’s screwed up and not me.
I’m convinced that whilst I may have my failings (needy and insecure) I’m actually a nice person.
Intervention by my doctor and local crisis team have helped a great deal, and my meds have been increased significantly. Got a testing few weeks ahead of me but that light at the end of the tunnel is now a lot bigger than a pinhole.
Have discovered an amazing singer recently too (Blossom Dearie) and would recommend that anyone in crisis should youtube her and just […]
Is there anyone here who is sometimes just tired even of trying to die. Sometimes i just don’t feel anything anymore. I feel like I’m frozen then.
Hey everybody, first thing I want to say is thanks for taking the time out of your day to read this.
My name is Chris, I am 16 years old and this is the first time I’ve ever thought about attempting suicide. I feel like I don’t have the balls to do it though. My life has been just horrible the past few years. I just need someone to talk to. Let me tell you my story:
About 10 years ago my sister ran away to get married. I was only 6 years old. My parents, my brother, my cousins, Etc never got to see the wedding. […]
So my Dr. forced me to go to the hospital on Wednesday and I got out yesterday. I dont really know how that helped me. They upped my doses of meds. I haven’t had any suicidal thoughts in about a day. I haven’t choked myself with anything either but I still fill depressed. I really Dont know how its going to get better. It seems like I’m in an endless hole of despair.