I think that all humans are essentially ‘evil’, and by that, I mean selfish, among other commonly presumed negative things. Generally, I also believe that people are submissive and ignorant. I don’t think I’m really that different, but I’m aware of my own shortcomings. Why keep living when humans don’t care for one another, and when love is just a temporary high? I know my purpose in life is to work for people and receive happiness from making money, and live a life that I had no choice to experience, nor can I live a life I want, for I want nothing. I don’t even exist. I’m just a collection of elements performing meaningless and chaotic motions. Society just wants to use me like a tool, and I am an inherently worthless grain of stardust. I don’t like being worthless and forced to submit to something that I did not consent to in order to be happy. Imagine being told, “You’re going to live your life as a tree, and later you will be cut down and used for toilet paper.” It kind of feels like that.
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Interesting thoughts. I can see your angle and approach though I don’t fully agree with it. I like your perception on the matter though.
Interesting title.
Yes some things you mentioned resonate with me. Despite my life/relationships, unfortunately we are a slave to capitalism and must work like a dog for others and it’s very difficult to make sometimes even a small improvement in our lives.
For ages I had my head in the clouds-while I saw others around me desperately trying to cobble a life together with dating/jobs and so forth. I looked down on these people because I had felt I was just destined to go very far in my life-due to my high IQ, I felt it was inevitable, just a matter of jumping through the right hoops and I’d be set.
But then reality set in and realized my fantasies weren’t about to turn into reality. Anyways, long story short, even if the rest of my life was great-I’ve always had a fiercely independent nature and despise the idea of working for others. Capitalism is a machine for creating slaves and making them generate vast wealth for those who own the machine, while we work to survive. It’s a great system if you’re on top but wretched to be on the bottom.
I’ve sought ways-tried to use my intelligence to get out of the rat-race but it’s quite difficult and only luck or good connections usually helps you ‘win.’
I agree with you, this is why the government sees suicide as criminal behavior because what good is a dead slave. Fuck the government would rather have you shoot someone or a commit a crime so they can lock you up and charge people taxes for a concrete building.
i love ur title
Spot on, Secondlife. A high IQ is no indication of happiness or success. It often acts as a handicap as we can see & understand things most people can’t… or won’t.
It still amazes me how cruelly people will treat each other to get their fragile egos stroked. A temporary high at the cost of integrity & character. I seriously wish I knew the reasons why. I just don’t have it in me to be like that.