On PlayStation Network I made an account called TransGirly. I intended it as sort of a beacon – other people who were either Transgender or questioning such could message me if they ever saw me on PlayStation Home and add me as a friend. There’s always strength in numbers, and that’s what I was going for. To have a circle of friends who could depend on one another if they needed it.
Today while I was on Home, two people approached me. They had club tags that read [<3 Jesus]. One of them began preaching to me about the rapture, how it was upon us, and that I’d better prepare for it. The second one noticed my username and said, “Transgenders are simply men with plastic parts.” Stunned, I said, “Jesus won’t accept those who won’t accept others. If you truly believe the rapture is nigh you’d understand that and treat me as an equal.” He responded, “Oh, don’t get me wrong, it’s not hate. It’s the truth. But hey, do you!” That line bugged me the most. How can you be so high on your own opinion that you see it as the absolute truth?
Someone on YouTube said something to me that I fucking love. “It’s a death cult, and everyone is so obsessed with their promises of a better life after death, that they shun anything that might get in the way of it!” Of course, there are people who use the whole religion thing as a shield to cover themselves from what they don’t know or like very much. They use it an excuse to hate others, and it angers me more than anything – it’s what that man on Home was doing to me. Any faith that requires me to hate others is a faith I can do without.
He was a coward, because he ran off as soon as he said that to me, “I better leave before she reports me.” he said. Another thing, if I’m a man with plastic parts, why are you using female pronouns to refer to me? If you believed that I was a man, and weren’t just saying that to see a rise out of me, wouldn’t you use male pronouns? I began to ask him that but he left before I could type it out. As he began to leave, the woman who was preaching to me said, “Your soul is male. No matter what you do to your body, it won’t make a difference.” Then she left before I could reply to her, too. My soul is female, and so is my brain. My body was the only thing that needed catching up, and I’ve been on hormone therapy for long enough that even my body is that of a woman. Most of you have seen what I look like and can judge for yourself.
Anyway, I guess it’s whatever. I know what I am deep down inside, and I don’t need their approval to live my life. They’re only upset because I was brave enough to break free and actually live my life how I saw fit. They’d rather be miserable in their lives, picking on others to justify their own existence. I don’t need to do that. Everyday I can look in the mirror and know I took charge of my life, and that’s enough for me to smile. 🙂
Thanks for reading! I know this was a longer story than I usually post.
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You took the high road – good for you.
Practitioners of religion are responsible for more deaths, mayhem, carnage, misery, oppression and intolerance than anyone else that I can think of. Hitler, the Conquistadores, radical fundamentalists – they all claim to be acting on God’s behalf. Every a**hole that imposes his or her beliefs on somebody else because they claim to be acting in accordance with God’s will is someone you’d be better off steering clear of.
This world will become a much better place once we’re all free from religion.
I agree wholeheartedly with you, C4! 🙂
“I know what I am deep down inside, and I don’t need their approval to live my life”.
That’s the attitude of a champ. Keep being you. 🙂
Thanks! I totally will! 🙂
People hate and judge what they can’t comprehend. I believe in Christ and I believe that I will be with him in the end. My mother on the other hand is a religious fanatic that pushes her beliefs on everyone. My god tells me not to judge anyone and to love you all equally. I’m not here to try and get you to believe in my god or to tell you that God’s not going to love you because of that. I have my personal beliefs which I will gladly share if asked but they are mine and I keep them to myself unless asked. My point to you…you don’t need anyone’s approval and you don’t need to justify yourself to anyone. As a Christian, I love you just the way you are, whether born or chosen. 🙂
I didn’t choose this life. I was born into it. Believe me, the last thing I want is to be almost constantly harassed for being transgender.
“Anyway, I guess it’s whatever. I know what I am deep down inside, and I don’t need their approval to live my life”
Seeking their approval would have been futile to begin with. People like the ones you mentioned only approve those who fit to their extremely narrow and often delusional world view. I’m glad you didn’t let them ruin your day.
My dear,you are getting stronger and stronger.You are becoming increasingly clear and rational about your changes and your lifestyle-you are letting go of things that sicken you. Anyone with basic unpolluted senses of right and wrong can instantly feel how very wrong those statements they made to you were. CLEARLY it is nonsensical and morally wrong to condemn people for being different and for using the Big J as their battering ram down the throats of the” damned”..such hypocrisy and self righteous delusion.. I always say that God hates religion, because I have felt th presence of god before and I know without a doubt that the crimes comitted in the name of god are completely disconnected from god. They are lies. They are culttivating fear,for thats what serves MEN best. They are fostering division–not trying to unite humankind. They are creating unrest and condemnation. Just look at the world of shit brought on by religious persecution,forced assimilation…..all in the name of Our Christian God or the Big A..both have been the recipient of glory through mass murdering ! God doesn’t have anything to do with all our ridiculous man made dogma! MAN MADE DOGMA….
But even more impressive is the fact that you realize your value as a person and as a beacon of hope and acceptance to those who ,like yourself, have struggled with depression,frustration identity,and hate. You are overcoming your adversaries and your self doubt.You are helping others. This is how you survive the storm and build a life of your own-youre pretty fucking cool,TS. Also-CLEARLY your soul is female.I could recognize that from the first post I read of yours….some people are blind to the truth no matter HOW blatantly the evidence shows it to be..
Had I not read your posts about it, I’d never guess you were transgender. As C4 mentioned, you took the high road when confronted by people with such a narrow view of what is moral, which is admirable and is far more moral than those people who sought to judge you. I’m glad you have started to claim your identity and are becoming more comfortable and confident with who you are.
It also looks like you don’t have much of a debate here either…what’s it, 6-0? 🙂