PTSD help needed plz

I suffer from PTSD also. First of all let me say that having PTSD is NOT a sign of weakness. It can take the strongest person and render them helpless. The emotions involved are very strong so understand that. It is unclear why some people get it and some don’t but it has NOTHING to do with strength of character. What is emerging is that PTSD is more likely when the event has been triggered/caused by another person as opposed to say a natural disaster. For me it has been a relentless accumulation of traumatic events. As of 7 years ago they numbered 43 but it’s been added to since then. They range from constant abuse to battling fatal illness, disability, deformity. Every year I suffer at least 1 catastrophic event…many of these have been caused by another person.

Symptoms include:
– Reliving the trauma. This is not just remembering the trauma but actually reliving it with all the emotions of the original event…it’s like it’s happening all over again. For me it also means that reliving one event triggers reliving most or all of them.
– Ruminations. Constant movie playing of the event(s) in your head. If I’m busy, say at work, I can mostly keep them at bay and they don’t interrupt me that much. Nevertheless, they do pop up and can last just a few minutes or if I’m not busy they’ll hang around for quite a while (usually when I’m not at work)
– Nightmares. I’m now medicated at night so I can sleep. Otherwise I would just have nightmares all night
– Sadness. This is not just feeling down. It is a TOTAL sadness
– Anger. This comes with the territory and is understandable particularly if the trauma has been delivered by another person. There is no evidence to support that this anger translates into actual violence. For me I have to carry what OTHERS have done TO me, not what I did TO them
– Fear, anxiety, stress, hyper vigilance and mistrust. For me, having such a long and varied history of abuses and traumatic events this is understandable. As another PTSD sufferer explained ‘take an average person’s full blown work/life stress and multiply it by 10’. Kindness is what we need NOT more abuse (as has been the case with me)
– Helplessness and worthlessness. I’ve had this so long now (53 years) I cannot think any other way no matter what treatment I’ve received
– Loss of Life. What I used to have, I no longer have. Whether that has been due to illness or due to barbaric evil people it’s gone anyway and it leads me to be believe that suicide is most definitely the answer

Treatments:
– seek out help from specialists
– there are no specific medications developed for PTSD. Usually they will prescribe medications used for other mental illnesses to treat PTSD
– there is some work being done in confronting the trauma e.g. taking war veterans back to the ‘scene of the crime’ so to speak but that may well not be advisable if the trauma was caused by someone who abused you. Seek advice

Finally, do not under any circumstances allow abusive people to be in your life. At the first sign someone is going to mistreat you, DUMP them…I failed to do this way too many times. Only have people in your life that will respect you, your property, situation and respect your voice…NOT people who will ignore your wishes and treat you badly. Only kindness can help you heal not rotten people with abusive hearts and will trash you whenever it suits them.

This is just an executive summary…there is SO much more I could say but it would take pages to explain. I hope you get through this. For me, 53 years is just TOO much, it WILL defeat me and I will go.

Good luck.

Isolating is also common. I no longer return phone calls from friends. I’m also now isolating from family…I just have to do one thing for my late mother and get my dad into a nursing home then I can isolate more from them also. For me this is only going one way. I’ve given up but that doesn’t mean you need to.