Tonight, I had a close friend to me decide that he hates me. He decided I wasn’t worth it anymore, and he told me to f**k off and kill myself. I’m not gonna lie, that hurt me terribly. I wish I could just disappear and never come back. I’m feeling so guilty.. What if I really am the problem? I’m starting to think I’m the problem. I mean, can you blame him, our anyone else, for walking away from me? I’m a *****. I’m stupid. I’m pretty ugly too. I’m fat, I’m mean, I’m prudish, I’m snooty, and I am a terrible person. I’m a pessimistic person, and I’m a Debby downer. who wouldn’t walk out on me? There’s nothing good about me.. Maybe i should just go kill myself. It’ll save everyone the trouble of caring about me.. :'(
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Sorry you feel this way. What strikes me reading most of the post here is the subject of feeling alone and no one cares about us. More and more I understand that I learn to be happy on my own and either people like us the way we are or not. I don’t know you but I am sure you are not a bad person. We all have good attributes, we just need to recognize them.
I’m a Debby downer too. In fact, people have created a nickname for me with the word “Complain” in it. That’s how pessimistic I always am.
But for some reason I can’t help it.
And actually…it’s really really hard for me to be around super positive people. They make me utterly exhausted! How they can be so jubilant all the time? Seriously.
I wish I knew more people like myself. People who aren’t afraid to say their true feelings about a situation. I mean, we all know when a situation is bad. Some people just choose to hide their feelings and not say anything.
I think we’re the type who aren’t ashamed to say what’s on our mind.
Our type of people need people like us to talk to. I’m sure you’re going to make great friends with people who share your way of thinking and they’ll become really important people for you.
Or, on the other hand, you might meet someone who is SO optimistic that they need someone who is pessimistic to balance them out. One of my friends is like that.