Fuck it

Ya I haven’t understood why so many people are fake, especially in high school. Perhaps it’s the media, the competitive/capitalist society, there’s a strain of meanness that runs through it…for absolutely no reason. A close relative of mine who’s in school stated she has no friends and that the girls there are bitches. And she is someone who’d fit in better than anyone, smart, funny, beautiful…it’s an ugly phenomena.

But then looking back, I had some hairy moments in high school also…while there was innocence on the one hand, I also had to deal with thuggish assholes. I don’t know where this idea of being mean to others came from. I can’t consciously want to hate someone, especially if they’re weaker/smaller than me…yet this is a regular occurrence in schools.

Then when you’re an adult the battle becomes more subtle, sublimated and less direct/in your face…mostly it’s backstabbing. But I’ve learned to just go with the flow because I begin to hate those who hate me and revel in their losses also. Sadly it’s the way the world is now. At the same time I think many people are very egocentric and few can admit their own faults which leads to fights. Even the people you once thought were kind and good can turn on you-I’ve had that happen more than once. It’s an adapt or die situation…evolutionary sociopolitics.