It has been a while but I guess this was inevitable, I really tried to cut deeper but the knife was just so blunt. I just couldn’t feel the sadness that I know I should feel. I feel so empty and lifeless, this at least made me feel something. Just like last time, I started shallow and then gradually I will cut deeper and deeper.
People often mistake cutters for attention seekers and while it is true I am posting my picture in a public space, I also have no intention of letting anybody in the ‘real’ world find out. I am not wise enough nor intelligent enough to convey my feelings into words but I guess anyone else who is a cutter can probably understand. This is the only way left for me to feel anything or maybe it is the only way for me to release my imprisoned feelings.