I bought what I now know was a cheap tongue piercing a month ago.Earlier I was at a friends house & the plastic on my piercing came off but I didn’t know.I was drinking water & felt It going down my throat. I drank a lot water to swallow It but I couldnt.I tried to throw it up but I couldn’t.I felt my breathing & heart beat start to slow down.I started to get terrifed,I was seconds away from telling my friend to take me to the hospital but I didn’t wanna seem like a *****.Plus he didn’t have a ride.I was sitting there scared on the Inside,calm on the outside.After contradicting myself,I told myself If I go then It was my time,If I don’t,It wasent meant to be.Obviously Im still here.The point of why I’m saying this Is cause some of us want to die,but terrified when It comes down to It.
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Fear exists. Anybody who has been in combat of any sort, will tell you they were terrified while it lasted. It’s not comfortable, it’s not good in any sense of the word. Some enjoy it, but it’s not a comfortable feeling to be scared.
Death is frightening, and comparable to combat. Those who choose it, don’t do it lightly. It’s impossible to do so lightly. Consider your experience, then multiply it tenfold… I’m lecturing, so forgive me. I hope you understand my point.
I haven’t been in actual war but there are some video games that make it feel real enough. While there’s many bad guys I’d love to kill in the real world like Islamic terrorists, I know I’m not prepared to fight.
Plus the whole problem with battle is not the taking action, shooting a gun, etc…it’s the surprises, the sniper who had a bead on the back of your head the whole time you were getting in a position to kill his terrorist buddy.
Plus in real life your endurance, bullets, vision is finite and there’s no respawn. Then if you get captured, you’ll wish you were dead. I’ve felt genuine fear in some of these video games I’ve played, only because you get so absorbed. I’ve even laughed at myself for taking a game seriously but the emotion was real. Now with things like the ‘Cave’ and Occulus Rift, games are only going to get ever more real/immersive.
As for real death it is scary-this is why so few of us take it to that point-only those of us who are driven to our wits enough and have no escape from a terrible existence follow through. Though sometimes it can be snap-decision as well.
I’ve experienced asphyxiation before, I wasn’t able to breathe for what felt like 2 or 3 minutes, my lungs were burning but then kind of subsided….I felt I might be close to blacking out because my vision started fading and I thought if this is what death will feel like from choking, it’s really not that awful…I was ok after but it was a good unintended test run at the real thing one day maybe if I go this route. But most likely I’m aiming for inert gas-no need for all that choking drama. Also wouldn’t want my family to think I suffered a lot before I died.
*wit’s end