why do i feel so bad? my life is perfect so why do i want to see all the pain ooze out of my wrists? i love my girlfriend and shes why im alive, yet i beg for the feeling of not feeling anything. should i man up an live with it and keep it hidden or tell her my pain? why do they tell you it will all be ok when you get help? that the magic pills will save you? that the people will remember and continue to care when they eventually forget? why?
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It hurts right now and that’s okay. Denying how you feel will cause you to feel worse and you’ll spiral. People tell you that you’ll be okay when you get help because what they mean to say is that you’ll slowly recover and there are people out there who can help you do that. There is no magic pill, no quick fix, things take time and effort from both you and those who help people, but the major component in all of this, is you.
I can tell you I’ve never forgotten a face of a person I’ve helped. I hope you find the right help.
thank you, but i’m beyond that now. I got help almost half a year and have been taking the meds and going to counselling but it’s still not working. I will never commit suicide but I will always long for that release.