Fuck. I don’t have a drop of spit left in me. I knew when I lost my job a month ago that I would need more energy to turn things around but I am sinking fast. I decided to forget about pounding the pavement for another I.T. job and start looking for freelance recording and voice-over gigs. This I can do from home and I have all the hardware I need and I have the chops to do it.
The problem is I still need to get organized, refresh my skills and dig everything out of the closet to get set up. But I am just too spent to even clean off my fucking desk. What I really need to do is permanently retire from the world and be selfishly taken care of. Now THERE’s a stellar thought. It would probably cost me two grand to get a five dollar hooker to stand in the doorway and wink at me. That’s a shitty thing to say but that is how I feel.
Ugh…. in fact I am too tired to write any more.
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Hey nozmoking. The advice you give others is always so eloquent and thoughtful. Dig into that reserve of insight you have and see what you come up with. You sound a talented lad I have confidence in you…but I also know what it’s like to be in the hole where mustering any kind of motivation and energy can be difficult.