People always say ‘ there are reasons for being alive, stay here, we need you’ yeah, you need me do you? Well tell that to me the next time you ditch me for someone better. Everyone is better than me. I don’t see the point of being here; I don’t think there is one. I self harm. People tell me to stop but others tell me to keep going. But I have made up my mind. I’m leaving, no one needs me nor do they want me . My own mother has disowned me. She says it’s my falut my sister is dead. She says I drove my sister into killing here self. People always say follow your elders foot steps. Well mabey I should. But I have know one.
I try to stay strong and try my best but I just get laughed at. So I am leaving. Soon. Very soon. Too soon to say goodbye to the few people that deserve to hear it. I get called a sick barstard at school because of my sister.
Anyway. Goodbye. This is far too soon
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I agree that it is far too soon. Fuck what we think, live for your self. Fuck our needs. You need you. And you can do whatever the hell you want.
Anyone that tells you to keep self harming is really fucked up. Live for yourself. Please, as someone who has been where you are, just wait, call the suicide prevention hotline.
I know it’s overused but god, it does get better.
Hi. I’m on your side. I know what it’s like to feel like no one cares, no one understands. But there are people out there in the world who do care. I am 41 now but I struggled just like you when I was younger. I wanted to die over and over again. I felt like my parents and family had no clue. But I found other people my age to talk to and I went to group therapy and stuff like that. They were SO caring and loving and understood me. There are so many options out there for you. And there are SO many people wanting to help and to love you. You do not need the love of your mother if it is an abusive kind of love. It is not worth trying to get someone to love you who is incapable of it. Reach out as you are doing here and keep reaching out to people who you just think…just think might be safe to reach out to. The people who treat you like dirt are NOT the people you want in your life. And there are plenty of LOVING people out there who would love to meet you. I am one of those people. Just know that I am thinking of you and I hope that you can find it in you to keep reaching out. xoxo