The past few years of my life haven’t been the best i may say, i always feel like i’m under water, like Ariel (the little mermaid) except that i can’t breath, i’m dying, gasping for hair watching all around me, people who sees me but don’t understand, people who hear the horrible sound that i make but don’t listen, people who talk about knowledge but are really ignorant to the fact that i’m gasping for hair, i’m reaching desperately for a hand that is not there.
During a long period of time i stay there not breathing but somethings was wrong really wrong, i just wouldn’t die, it was hell, not breathing around people who breath and trying to understand, why me, why am i the only one gasping for hair, why and i the only on desperately trying to reach life.
I was/am trap in a sea, breathless, dying. i can swim, I’ve tried so many time but it always seems endless the nearest that i get of the surface the farthest that i was/am.
Y.T
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I can’t give you any psychoanalytic answer that might go at greater depth and maybe provide a good solution for you, but from my own experiences all I can say is that, you are suffering from an acute form of depression, which is a real hellish torment! I had been through this kind of torrid spell for years, only difference with me was that it was an endless world of darkness! It was like a sea or a zone of absolute darkness, that throttled me, numbed me, made me literally writhe in pain, but I had no scars to show anyone. One thing I tried during those times, you can try and see if it helps, it is deep breathing. You can find a lot of good guides for it on the internet to help you do it the right way. Also if you feel you can’t take it anymore, you can seek professional help. Talking to other people won’t help much in this case, as you’d just tire out simply explaining to them your suffering!