For the past 10 years I’ve have picked the same day to kill myself and I don’t know if I can make to that day this year. I dropped out of school when I was 16 and never been able to get a job. I can’t ask for help no matter how much I want to. Last year I showed my older brother the notes of suicidal thoughts and posted on Facebook I was having thoughts of suicide hoping someone would help me but no one did and everyonwe just forgot , know I’m at a the point were I don’t want any. I can’t remember why I have these thoughts anymore , I forget everything. There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t want to die. I’m not sure I can make it to that day.
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Hi Randy. I’m sorry that you’ve been struggling for so long. It seems like life hasn’t been easy. This is easier said than done but try not to be hard on yourself. It’s a tough economy right now. There are Ivy League graduates without jobs. Many people without degrees who have gone far. With that said, look into local options for obtaining your GED. That would be a good start. Once you have a GED, that opens up your options a bit both in terms of jobs and education.
You wrote that you were hoping someone would help but no one did. Although you want to ask for help but can’t, it’s really the best thing for you to do. I’m sorry that your brother didn’t help you but there are a few options. There are crisis lines, community resources, and others who can assist. It’s not an overnight thing but it might make the days a little easier. At some point, you might be able to stop setting that date.
Well, if your not working and feel suicidal and you don’t Have to work (living with parents) play either league of legends(game is free)or world of warcraft.. amazing comouter games to make ya feel better for the time being, i do admit it helped me years back.. have fun 🙂