I don’t know what to say to you anymore,

I don’t know how to love you anymore. I wish I could have known I was going to fall in love with you when I met you then I would have done you a favor and left you alone. I had the lowest expectations for you FOR US. I thought this would have ended with failure , just a fling of failure that’s all I wanted. But now it just time to say goodbye we’ve given this try and maybe sometimes that’s all that matters. But I’m going so freaking crazy that the word crazy doesn’t even fit the description of how I feel. You will never truly want to be with me and I can’t hang on to whatever pathetic thing this is what ever pathetic thing we are I’m disappearing from you for good now I never want to see you again it hurts way too much.  I’m sorry I’m just way more than sorry but there’s nothing I can say or do to let you know I’m leaving i just want to run far so far. Maybe one day we will find a place where it’s okay to be what we are but here it isn’t I will never be okay not being able to love you the way I want to.