My life has been hell for the longest while. I’m at a point now where I’ve lost all drive, and wish to die. My family hasn’t been there for me in years, and the job I have now is a ever ending fest of self-important douches who see the world within themselves and no-one else. Though, I suppose that’s California in a nutshell.
I’m Tessa, an introverted woman in her early thirties who has found herself living a strictly independent life since the age of fourteen, void of any friends, lovers, or anything else that might shape her life in normality. Nice to meet all of you, of course. I’m sure your lives are worse than mine in every way imaginable.
I’m free to chat if any of you want to do so. I don’t do face-to-face, so Skype is out of the question. Though if you love passing emails back and forth, I’m totally your gal! I’m more than likely coming off as more enthusiastic than I’ve ever been in recent memory. But trust me, my life is in shambles. Anyway, let me know if you’re interested in chatting, and I’ll pass you along my email address.
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Hi Tessa, you sound like a better person than I am. I’m sorry your life is in a shambles, I truly am. I can’t offer much in terms of conversation but I’d appreciate the distraction of emails. Maybe it will keep me here a little longer.
As an introvert myself, I think we would get along nicely if you are interested in talking. I’ll take you up on the offer since I can’t discuss my depression with anyone else. God knows I don’t need anyone calling the cops for a wellness check -_-.
Sounds good! My email is dreamparadox1@gmail.com
I’m sorry things are so painful for you right now. I do have one question: you stated that you have lived an independent life since your early teens. Since you used the term “independent” and not “lonely,” I was wondering if this was by choice. If so, you may have (even inadvertently) closed yourself off. Even those of us (such as myself) who are natural loners can crave human interaction at times.
With that said, welcome to the site – I’m sure you’ll find many supportive people here willing to listen and help. 🙂
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)
Yeah, I was never lonely. I always had a friend who was there with me through most of my life, so I never had to worry about being totally alone. Plus, having to grow up so early in my life has taught me how to think rationally. So I understand that if people aren’t getting back to me right away, it’s probably because they’re busy, and not hating my guts. I prefer solitude, anyway. A night with some red wine and my Kindle goes a long way after a busy day at the job.
I mean, I’m now a thirty-something. So I’m no longer ‘very mature for my age!’ It’s par for the course these days.
Thanks for the welcome, I appreciate it very much! 🙂