My burden

Why I have to face myself everyday with depression and anxiety I don’t know, I just wanted to be liked and loved but sadly I never was and it doesn’t help when family members and pets had to die on me, I’m lost and alone an I’ve been contemplating suicide for a long time, I tried once before but my mum came in my room as I was fading out and stopped me before I died, I just don’t know what to do I have a life like everyone else but no one to Love at the same time and no one to love me back I originaly came here to just explain my pain and about how I’m gonna suicide but Ive came here now as advice and support for everyone to talk and try to help. I’ve realised many things in life and that’s when you think you’ve hit rock bottom stand up and do the impossible show this fucked up race what real mental, physical and emotional strength you really have, I’m not trying to be a counciller or however you spell it I’m just trying to save precious and the most valued lives people hate suicide because it’s a disease which CAN be cured just message me for help please!!