Probably I’ll be flamed by some people here, but the chances are – if nothing changes, in a few years I won’t be here anymore anyway. I guess, it’s better to regret having tried something, rather than regret not having tried it…
Why post it here instead of trying some singles / dating sites? I tried it. I won’t go into details, otherwise my post would be too long.
I’m looking for a soulmate. People believing in the right to die and not scared of death wish are rare. If I don’t have a small chance even here (on the most active suicide-related site) – probably I don’t have it anywhere.
So, I’m looking for a woman, who:
– believes, that anyone has the right to die in dignity, to have a peaceful and not a disgraceful death (comparable to Dignitas’ method)
– likes anime (it became a big part of my life, it’s a magic world that kept me alive for many years)
– wants (or doesn’t mind) to have own children
While I defend the right to die and may go this path in a few years, I shall cast away this right if/when I have a loving wife/partner and/or children – as long they need me. I hope, she feels the same.
Some trivia about me:
170 cm (5’7”)
average build / weight
straight, but wouldn’t mind if you’re bi
never had a girlfriend
no severe illnesses or disabilities
was never a smoker, a drinker, or used drugs, but it’s not a deal breaker for me
have a decent job, no debts
live in Germany, but wouldn’t mind to relocate
Caucasian, but fine with any race
I consider myself quite stable, was never cutting nor attempted suicide, but I wouldn’t mind if you did.
My favorite story is Ray Bradbury’s “The Blue Bottle” (google “The sundials were tumbled into white pebbles.”)
The most important values for me are sensitivity, empathy, tactfulness, fairness, honesty.
I would prefer to get to know each other slowly over time to gain mutual trust, play together some MMORPGs, etc.
At the beginning probably I wouldn’t feel comfortable / safe to tell much about myself.
Contact: see my profile
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Hope you don’t get flamed. I don’t fit what you are looking for (male and straight) but hell, just wanted to wish you luck haha. You do seem to have a thought out plan (even if it’s a bit risky if you ask me). Not every day you see a post like this.
Thank you, Mf!
Actually, I’m just at my wit’s end.
What have I been waiting for all these years? I don’t know… I guess, I hoped that as the time passes either I find friends, a significant other, or, if nothing changes for the better – I’ll just fade away like an autumn leaf. No desires, no regrets, free to finally throw away this alien existence of mine.
But something is still holding me…
You know, at my work place everyone is quite nice… Two colleagues became fathers for the first time about a month ago. When I see their eyes, when I hear them talking about their troubles with the newborns, coming to work after sleepless nights… I just can’t help but feel admiration, yet regret. Last week the wife of one of these colleagues came to the office with her twins. I think, I didn’t say a single word when others talked, was just standing there to exchange good aura, but the few times the mother of the babies glanced straight into my eyes … I had such a nostalgic yet warm feeling, like we knew each other from some past, that wasn’t as cold and hopeless for me as where/when I’m now…
If you were gay I would go out with you coz I like anime too, and I am bi , but I’m 16 so lol
Would be funny if there was a suicidal dating website lol
Chances of you finding a woman off this site is the same chance as winning the 649 lottery. You gotta find a woman in your area dude.. if your up for it, speak this message to women in your area. Realistically why most men are single is because we don’t go and talk to the girl were interested in face to face. Imagine telling this to 20 girls in person in your area, I’d say atleast 1 would be interested in you.
You are right about the chances here, but my chances to find a like-minded girl in my area or IRL in general are that divided by 1000. Plus I have an almost woman-like pride, I would die a death of thousand needles from shame. I even thought of relocating to Philippines. But even though my chances to find a wife there would be much higher, my chances to find like-minded girl would barely improve (if not even sink).
Yes, a dating site for people, who tolerate suicidal thoughts, would be awesome, but probably it would be shut down quickly after the first suicide packs…
Brightshadow,
I’m not interested in any kind of romantic relationship, and I know nothing about anime, but I’m not squeamish about people with suicidal intentions, and I’m a strong right-to-die advocate (with the usual caveats).
If you click my username, you’ll see a link to my Facebook page. You’re welcome to add me and say hello. I’m just looking to develop a social network of sorts. If I ever become a vagrant and end up dead in a gutter somewhere, I’d like it if there were someone, somewhere, who would miss me 🙂
Would you want to find your “soulmate” on a suicide site?
I suppose anything is possible, but damn…..actively seeking a love interest on a suicide site?
“Hey babe. You can kill yourself or you can date me. Wanna get some pizza? If things don’t work out you can off yourself later. Free pizza babe, whaddya say”?
“Oh morris I’d love to go on a date with you, let me pop some pills before I go and maybe I can give you a dead fuck!” Okay that crossed the line.. sorry..
Where else do I have better chances to find a soulmate, if the key traits are advocacy of the right to die and being familiar with death-wish?
Probably better to go to those in-person meetings.. for depressed/suicidal/aa . Ever watch fight club? Watch that show and do what he does haha but finding a chick off the net.. doubt it.
Any big local depression/suicide community (that may organize such meetings) has a strong anti-suicide ideology. I can’t stand such cliques. In fact, it may be the opposite of what I’m looking for. I’m looking only for pro-choice people. Also, I going to such a meeting with such an intent would feel embarrassing. And it’s even quite risky.
Haha well the counselor of the suicide group is anti, but the victims there are pro.. thas why they are there. But dude I don’t understand you, you want a wife.. yet you want one that wants to kill themselve.. doesn’t make sense. Are you look for a wife to help kill? Are you looking for a wife that would do a suicide with you? Or are yiu trying to find one so broken that you are the one to fix them and make them not want to kill themselve?
Did you read the story by Ray Bradbury that I mentioned above? If you search in google for the quote, it’s the first search result. The story is not long, and if you read it, you’ll better understand what I’m saying.
There is a certain beauty to the death-wish, but only few people are able to feel this beauty. The chances to meet such a person here are like 1 thousand times better than among “normal” people. I want to be able to share this feeling, this experience, this state of mind.
Another reason is that I’m a proud guy, and I don’t want my future partner/wife to look down at me or pity me because of my past (or maybe even occasional present?) suicide thoughts. Also, “normal” person is much more likely to worry about it, because they don’t realize how stable in fact a suicidal person can be (in particular due to the strong feeling of responsibility and experience of resisting death wish).
I like the approach “give and take”. I’m not saying that my partner must bring to the table exactly the same values in every department (it would be even boring), but it’s very difficult to estimate the negative (or even the positive) value of having ventured beyond a certain line, something that “normal” people are likely to consider insanity (with a negative connotation).
Such a person would also be more likely to appreciate similar art, in particular similar anime & manga works and parts of works, music, etc. I long for a like-minded, “like-feeling” partner, a partner whose soul/heart has a similar wavelength.
Obviously, I’m NOT looking for a suicide pact.
Also, I’m pretty sure that in real life not only the organizers, but even many regular participants of such meetings are anti-choice. They wouldn’t be in such communities, if they strongly disliked the anti-choice ideology (like I do). I don’t want to be near these people when they know of my part or present feelings on this topic (or at least guess these feelings).
Ah, I would certainly talk to you, but you are too old for me 🙁 I am 22
I am 21, female. I do not want kids. This world is a mess already. I don’t know much about anime. I have played MMOs in the past, for years in fact…
i hope you find the person you are looking for.
i might read this Ray Bradbury story anyway. It sounds interesting