My friend Crystal ( my persian cat) died on the 31st Jan 2011, she was my only friend, with my anxiety and avoidant personality disorder, I have never connected with anyone or shared how I was feeling with anyone, I have been completely alone. for over 15 years or so. Work I don’t know if I will have a job by the end of the week, positions will be going, mine may be one of them, I won’t cope with that. Been in and out of hospital in the last 15 years or so because of suicide tendencies and self harm. But I think the anniversary of Crystal’s death added with losing my job will give me that added incentive to end it all, on Crystal’s anniversary. Sad, but happy it will be finally over. : )
I am not looking for people to feel sorry for me or anything, I have just got no one else to talk to…. Thanks for reading
It’s raining and a thunderstorm passing overhead right now, I always loved that, love the smell of rain, and the sound of thunder.
Paul
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Hi Paul, sorry to hear about your cat. It can devastating losing a pet. After so long though, have you thought of getting another? Might brighten your days. I hope you find something to live for.
I can imagine what it feels like losing a pet. To me, the genuine friendship between a human being and an animal is the most beautiful thing. It is very honorable of you to care so much for her 4 years after she passed away. I’m sorry to hear about your work problems and anxiety issues, I feel the same way and face the similar personal issues. Life is rough.