That’s what people said to me after I broke up with my boyfriend.. I’ve posted about my story a few weeks ago (I was engaged with a good and loving man who promised me he would be there forever.. But it didn’t work. My bad character and my childhood (like hell in fact) made that he wasn’t able to love me anymore). Since then I was depressed, couldn’t sleep anymore, feel like nothing, empty. And I don’t know how or why I began to hang out with friends, to meet people, to laugh. I remember saying myself: life isn’t so hard! Go on like this! I see that men are looking at me and that makes me feel good. I also slept with someone a friend with benefits you know.. My sister and my brother support me too. They are very important to me.
I am a 23 years old girl who is going to get her degree and who is healthy and quite pretty.
So why the hell I still want to die right now ? Please don’t tell me I have everything to be happy because I know that but yes I definitely want to die.
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“why the hell I still want to die right now?”
My opinion is that, while you have taken a lot of positive steps forward to get past the ugliness of your failed engagement, you’re starting to become jaded. In your mind somewhere is the thought that everything you do will fall apart like your relationship did. It sounded like you were convinced that it would be forever with your man, but you guys didn’t even get out of the starting gate. So your mind is thinking that if it could be fooled once, why not again and again and again?
It’s fear of being hurt, and it sucks. You sound mentally strong though so keep putting your best foot forward. Once you rack up a series of personal victories (life achievements), your brain should regain its self-confidence and let go of the suicidal feelings. Stay positive and do what you know you should be doing, even if you don’t want to be. You’ll get back to feeling good again.
Thank you for your message. I hope you’re right. And I hope to be a strong person as you said, at least strong enough to go through it.
Why u wanna die? U should mention that too if u have lost ur bf then there are plenty or mens out there waiting to date a girl like u. So dont try to kill urself. God gave u the life. Use ur life. There are always ups and down in life dear. And if u r feeling alot to suicide, go to a physician and get urself help
beauty is temporal, it will begin to fade in a few years… you wont find the compassion you seek at a corporation, they just want their paycheck. at least you have ppl to talk to, as a man, i’m not so lucky.