See, I can come up with 100 reasons NOT to live.
- Life is too demanding for you.
- Because there’s nothing more you want from life.
- Because there’s nothing really significant you can do for the world.
- No more having to prove you’re good enough for people.
- No more having to lie and pretend.
- No more being treated unfairly.
- No more holding the weight of the world on your shoulders.
- You’re tired of being judged.
- No more being ordered around by people.
- No more competition.
- No more debt. You actually won’t need money anymore.
- Because nothing can fix your problems. Not you, not therapy, or Waldo.
- Because you’re going to die anyway. It might as well be on your terms.
- Because no one really needs you.
- No more being used.
- No more being disappointed in yourself and others.
- You will never be jealous again.
- No more suffering at the hands of others.
- …Because you’ll be away from it all.
- No more wondering why you should live.
- No more obligations.
- No more feeling ashamed of yourself.
- No more feeling like you have to impress or please people.
- No more being in awkward or uncomfortable situations.
- Because you’re lost. Profoundly.
- You don’t fit in anywhere.
- No more difficult decisions.
- No more disappointing people.
- No more being a push-over.
- No more secrets.
- No more worrying what people think of you.
- No more struggling with things.
- Because there’s nothing you’re really good at; you’re tired of being average at best.
- You want to know whether a god exists.
- You’re ready to experience the afterlife, if there is one.
- No more feeling burnt out.
- No more dealing with sadness and despair.
- No more trouble.
- Because you don’t know how to make and keep friends for some reason.
- No more dealing with favoritism, prejudice, and stereotypes.
- No more feeling like you’re part of some cosmic experiment.
- No more pressure to obtain success.
- You wanted to end it over a year ago.
- Because you can’t think of any good reason(s) to live.
- No more worrying about the future.
- No more having to put up with stupidity.
- Because drugs, antidepressants, and/or addictions shouldn’t inspire someone to live.
- You don’t want to get old.
- You don’t want to fail at anything anymore.
- No, you’re not giving up, you’re letting go of a world that doesn’t give a damn about you.
- You won’t have to deal with bigotry anymore.
- Because living (or continuing to live) the life you have is absurd.
- No more wishing you were someone else.
- No more being bothered by shallow, ignorant, or immature people.
- No more deadlines.
- Because the world doesn’t need you. You’re just 1 of 7,000,000,000+ people.
- No more sadness and tears.
- Because you have an awful past and a bleak future.
- You’ll never be a burden on anyone ever again.
- No more tests, be they academic, social, or whatever.
- No more needing anything like food, water, or shelter.
- No more wondering what people say behind your back.
- You’re tired of feeling inferior to others.
- You’re tired of feeling numb and empty.
- You’re tired of acting like you’re fine when you’re not. It’s like everybody expects you to be “fine.”
- No more being a victim.
- No more dilemmas.
- No more saying the wrong things to people.
- No more having a hard time getting people to understand you.
- No more being betrayed.
- So long government and your many issues.
- No more having to hurt people’s feelings.
- No more having to adapt to uncomfortable situations.
- No more frustration.
- Because you’re all out of options.
- No more waiting for the promotion, for love, for friendship, for someone to change, etc…
- No more having to “put up” with people.
- You won’t need luck anymore.
- Because life doesn’t interest, stimulate, or excite you anymore.
- No more depression.
- No more getting your hopes up and then being let down.
- No more being told or feeling like you’re not good enough.
- Because no one will remember you 100 years after you’re dead anyway.
- Neither the world nor the universe would shed a tear when you go.
- No more having to deal with foolishness.
- Because you realize that nothing’s worth it anymore.
- No more depending on people, on luck and chance, or on fate.
- No more mistakes and setbacks.
- Because there is no point to life; no finish line.
- No more giving people your heart and having them stomp on it.
- You want to be with deceased loved ones.
- Because regardless what anyone says, life will never be important to you.
- You won’t suffer anymore, at least in this life you won’t.
- You didn’t sign up for life or request to be born
- Because Earth isn’t the place for someone like you.
- Life discriminates. It makes people weak and others strong. It makes people rich and others poor. It makes people kind and others hateful.
- It would cost too much to turn your life around: too much time, money, and energy.
- You’re tired of giving it all and receiving little or nothing in return.
- Because next to no one can relate to what you’re going through.
- You just don’t want to live anymore.
- Maybe because the love you desperately need is impossible to find, replace, or reobtain.
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Number 95 is how I have been feeling for quite a while. I had a post from earlier today deleted because it was way too specific about my future plans.
Good list. You got most of it. Nice.
101 Seems tackled in… can relate tho. I remember 13 being a regular phrase of mine (when i was like 8 years old) even before being depressed (or maybe i was, but not diagnosed yet).
Hi Ryder. I think you could overcome those items that are serving as barriers to you moving forward. Some of them probably don’t apply. Having looked at previous notes, you come across as articulate and intelligent. I think you could do it.
I know I can overcome my problems. I just lack the motivation.
Awesome list. However I object to #3 “Because there’s nothing really significant you can do for the world.”
I think if I light myself on fire to protest illegal whaling off the coast of Japan it’ll have an impact… if I’m lucky I might end up on a t-shirt worn by some greasy kid at a skateboard park. If that aint significant I don’t know what is.
I also object to #12 “Because nothing can fix your problems. Not you, not therapy, or Waldo.”
How will you know until you FIND WALDO? The zen question that has plagued humankind since the dawn of existence.
Ryder could you email me? My username at hot mail dot com unless admin already has in which case just disregard
I guess depression really does make one totally centred on the self. You made NO mention of being terminally ill, as some of us are. I’d like to speed up the inevitable and i will when it gets even harder than it is now. Pain like I never imagined, is constant. It manifests in the most embarassing of ways sometimes, unmentionable ways. I was thrilled when Canada finally ok’ed the right to assisted suicide for people like me. BTW, do you have any idea how much friggin’ paperwork you must fill out first? It’s no simple yes or no, I do or do not want my life prolonged artificially. You almost need a lawyer to go through all the damned papers with you. It’s not easy when you are sick and in pain.
I agree with most of your points, though. There’s so much I’m not going to miss. I feel sad and pissed that I was screwed out of a halfway decent childhood and adolescence. Then BLAMO! All of a sudden I was an adult and expected to suck it up and *act* normal, I say act, cuz I know I will never and have never been normal.
Good in a way, to know there are more people like me. Good but so damned wrong. It shouldn’t be this way. Someone said the other day that taxes have gone up by about double in the past 10 or 15 years. We all know that wages have not increased anywhere near that number. It stinks that there are so many people struggling to have just the basics in life.
The Who said they hope I die before I get old. I’m sure they lied. Fogies still onstage. Have they pissed through their multi millions already? Boo effing hoo.
Ryder.
Nailed it.
I salute you, sir.
Eugenics is also a *****.
So pandaren, did you come from WoW? Lol
I did…played it for years. Haven’t gotten back to the latest expansion, though. Bucket List.
Read all 101 reasons. All apply to me. The decision was already made subconsciously. It will end.
I’ll come up with 100 reasons to live.
This post in itself and all these reasons pertaining to why I feel this way is enough to prove that I should not stay. I do not deserve to stay.
We all feel at least one of these everyday.
I have no words of comfort except to say that I most emphatically understand how you feel. I wrote a similar sort of list for my note a while ago, too. I pretty much agree with, or have strongly felt, nearly all 100 of the reasons you listed, except (mainly) for numbers 34, 35, and 91 since I don’t believe in God or the afterlife. Especially numbers 1, 3, 10, 16, 21 – 23, 33, 65, 74, 94, 95, and 97. Boy do I feel that. You might have already realized this, but some of the reasons listed overlap or are the same, such as 2 and 100, or 23 and 31, or 40 and 51.
If you do ever come up with 100 reason to live, maybe you could post them on here? Just a suggestion.
Yes, I’ll post it. I have 73 reasons to live already.
I love this list so much.
I’ve noticed you put 100 reasons to live but the problem is that it’s human nature for the bad to out weigh the good…