Its stupid i feel like this
I shouldnt need anyone
I shouldnt feel this lonely all the time
I shouldnt depend on anyone
I want to be strong and not depend on them
But they make me feel nice when i talk to them
But its rare now a days
The moments where we actually talk
They want to be left alone for hours
But all i need for hours is human contact
I wish they noticed
That i need them so fucking much
But they never do.
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I know exactly how you feel. I don’t have anyone around either. But just because you wish to speak to people and feel lonely doesn’t mean you aren’t strong. You are, you’re just going through a tough time. I’ve lost everyone, I’ve always been there for them but when I needed them they turned their backs. What a surprise right? There’s people who care. I don’t know you, but I care. It really sucks to feel so alone, but you’ve made it this far. You’re much stronger than you give yourself credit for. Don’t think of yourself as dependent on people because you crave interaction; it’s a basic human need. If you want someone to talk to, I’d love to be your friend. We’re both in the same place trust me. But there’s about 7 billion people on this earth, I’m sure we’re just in the wrong place with the wrong people. You’ll get through this. If you ever want to talk to someone, you can email me at hazeltorres33@yahoo.com. Sometimes strangers help us more than our “friends”. But you’re not alone. You’re not.
Lettigo,
No need to feel stupid because you need love. That is a requirement of many.
When you do talk, what are the subjects that are discussed? I am about to head back to parts unknown, but feel free to write and i will get back at my first chance.
Would you concider resuming the “Day” reports?
We talk about anything really. Anything from how the day went to awkward stories from the past.
My life is boring as hell so I don’t think I will. I’ve been feeling lonely and sad.
How are your relations with your sister?
Why do you say “i shouldn’t need anyone”?
my sister and i are still eugh
she gets bad on somedays but at this point i have no fucks left
i dont know i just feel like i shouldnt have to depend on people
i should be stronger than this
Have you discussed with your parents just how much their input in your life matters? Maybe mom and dad need some constructive encouragement to let them know they matter to you!
Pssshhhh. Like they would help.
If you were my daughter and i was failing you as a parent and too blind or distracted to see it, i would appreciate you letting me know. i am willing to bet if you wrote it out to them it would be a catalyst to better awareness
i told them what was going on with my sister (part of it anyway) they said “oh well we’re sorry you have to deal with this you’re doing a great job” and went on with their life soo
Have you told your patents what you share with us? Focusing less on the turmoil of sharing a home and parents with a difficult sister but to tell them you are vulnerable to the abandonment of distant relationships may help your patents see how their actions affect you