Can I stop hurting? Feeling like a shitty human being? Because I don’t live life in the most absolutely best way possible. I don’t want to believe in GOD because I don’t want to feel like shit about myself every single day. Because I sin and I don’t want to change that, and I don’t want to hate myself for not wanting to change it. But either way it goes the truth is I don’t accept myself and I put myself down because the things I do and enjoy are sins. Cursing, drinking, smoking, disliking people, pre marital sex, all these trivial things. Why can’t I just be this way and feel ok about it? I want to accept myself, and see myself outside of all the negativity. I want to love myself!! And hopefully some day I can be one of the rare few that find someone who loves them maybe I can stupidly have that life I’m so afraid to want or even hope for. Please I really want a good life, I’m working really hard for it. Please let this happen for me because if it doesn’t I won’t want to live with that. Here is to day drinking…
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I suppose that if you were raised in a religious family it must be difficult, but… if, as you say, you don’t “want” to believe in God, just forget it. Start managing your own life, stop thinking about sins and just think about what is ok and what is not for you.
Even if you do believe in God, does it imply that you have to follow all the rules from a single religion?
I know, it’s easy for me to say it, I’ve been raised in an atheist family, so I really don’t know anything about having the feeling that you are betraying some divine rules, but, still, there are social rules that affect everybody, and we need to know whether they are ok for us or not.
No one is perfect. We all have guilty pleasures. It’s just part of having a human brain and body. Our subconscious craves pleasure and comfort…stimulation.
Don’t let religion make you feel guilty. Just try to be the best you can be.