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The Day

by Taf Taf 10/23/2018

written by Taf Taf

Original version by the New York Rock & Roll Ensemble (1970):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3kS7OcH87Y

Cover version by Raining Pleasure (2005):

Lyrics:

Sitting in the time of day when the sun is very warm

Dreaming in a kind of way that a dream is always born

Drifting with the things I feel when I put away my will

Sleeping in the time of day when the sun is very still.

–

I’m alone here with you / Take my time, take me too…

–

Leaving in the time of day when the sun is getting cold

Walking in the kind […]

10/23/2018 2 comments

Constantine P. Cavafy – Trojans

by Taf Taf 8/11/2018

written by Taf Taf

Our efforts are those of men prone to disaster;

our efforts are like those of the Trojans.

We just begin to get somewhere,

gain a little confidence,

grow almost bold and hopeful,

–

when something always comes up to stop us:

Achilles leaps out of the trench in front of us

and terrifies us with his violent shouting.

–

Our efforts are like those of the Trojans.

We think we’ll change our luck

by being resolute and daring,

so we move outside ready to fight.

–

But when the great crisis comes,

our boldness and resolution vanish;

our spirit falters, paralyzed,

and we scurry around the walls

trying to save ourselves by running away.

–

Yet we’re sure to fail. Up there,

high on the walls, the […]

8/11/2018 1 comment

“And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries…”

by Lostsoul_20 10/31/2017

written by Lostsoul_20

No one listens to anyone anymore, sure they hear so that they are able to grasp a rough idea of what goes on in their environment but no one actually takes the time to truly listen. To do more than observe a situation but to try to grasp how it must be to be within that environment and try to envisage the emotions that might be evoked so as to truly understand the complexities of what goes on in the world. Nothing is just black or white, we are all contrasting shades of grey. That’s one of my biggest problems I guess, I feel as […]

10/31/2017 0 comment

Suicide Notes(Letters)

by SamuelDocGreen 6/23/2017

written by SamuelDocGreen

I have my plan, I’ve done the research, all that is left is the notes. I don’t want to leave them gasping for air like fish. God such bad choice of words especially with how I’m doing all this.

Anyway, I am finding my closer friends harder to write than my friends but not as close to. No, I’m having trouble explaining why I did what I did. I’m having trouble not breaking down and flinging my computer against a wall at 5 in the morning. I’ve decided but I can’t leave this world yet until it’s explained and everyone gets there pictures from me. I […]

6/23/2017 1 comment

back to insomnia

by arachnophilia 4/30/2017

written by arachnophilia

You know what’s really fantastic is lying awake at 2:30 in the morning, trying to figure out why I feel like a piece of shit. I mean, I feel like shit, obviously, with the dizziness and the nausea that comes from not sleeping for a couple of days. But why do I feel like a piece of shit? I fed my cats. I went to work, didn’t screw up or underperform. I didn’t get into any arguments, I didn’t say or do anything rude or unethical. So why, god, do I still have this leaden guilty-and-wanting-to-die feeling without any outside circumstances to justify it?

4/30/2017 2 comments

DONE WITH LIFE

by TeamYonce123 11/30/2016

written by TeamYonce123

I keep bullshitting on the subject, but i think im finally going to go threw with it. After the bell rings to go to the next period, Ill step into the bathroom and take all the pills that I have with me at this moment. This will be my first ever attempt but I cant help but feel guilty about it. I have 3 friends that love and care about me, when theres something wrong with me, they automatically baby me up. I hate it so much because, it feels like a pit in my stomach that I shouldnt do it for their sake. […]

11/30/2016 4 comments

Nothingness

by StrayMutant101 11/16/2016

written by StrayMutant101

I am emotionally drained. All the skills have used to distract myself has lost its spark. I just can’t find anything that will cope with it except self-harm.

Boredom, sadness, pain.

I’ve never done it before, but I feel as though I don’t have a choice.

11/16/2016 4 comments

Like it or not

by JusTired 10/14/2016

written by JusTired

Every one around me seems to be dancing and having a good time and I’m here fumbling to the beat like a love struck zombie. I don’t know when this started becoming normal to me. When did I begin feeling so rejected? Was it when I was a teen and my mother just some how knew I’d be a loser? At least she gave me options to how low I could possibly go on that scale and I’m… proud… to say that I am NOT a heroin addict. IN YOUR FACE MOTHER!

Every time I’m outside, I look around and feel this overwhelming feeling that nothing […]

10/14/2016 1 comment

I am a stalker

by ListConn 7/26/2016

written by ListConn

My parents never talked to me and dismissed my problems because they are too perfect for their kid to have flaws I guess. I am a weird kid. I never kissed a girl, never had friends, never had a childhood and I guess I never grew out of it.

A new employee at work is a girl who is the friendliest person I ever met. On her first day she introduced herself to me and she seemed genuinely interested about me and she was smiling. She always smiles. Few days later a coworker told me that she said that I’m smart and nice.

She is my cure […]

7/26/2016 7 comments

Feeling guilty about you guys

by fitzgerald 4/18/2016

written by fitzgerald

Hey, just wanted to let you know here how much I appreciate everyone here. I think we all were looking for something unheard of in the real world when we joined up.

I also just wanted to let you know I read as many posts as I can and even though I don’t have the words to help most of the time, I do support you.

Thanks everyone who responds to my posts for putting up with my whining even though you clearly have your own trauma to deal with. I feel I don’t have a lot to offer in return. But sincerely, thank you.

4/18/2016 6 comments

Feeling unwelcome and scared

by Trying2stayhere 4/9/2016

written by Trying2stayhere

I’ve dabbled at looking at posts on this site before. I have to say there is a lot of strength and a lot of pain by those that post. I don’t particularily know why I’m posting this, I guess I just need to tell someone with an outside opinion.

I’m a Marine veteran who has done two deployments to Afghanistan. I’ve seen some things and done things that will haunt me until I die and the people I try to reach out to never fully understand it. I’ve been out of active duty for over a year now and all I feel is regret. […]

4/9/2016 10 comments

Feeling like today is the day (Update)

by Blood_Lotus 4/9/2016

written by Blood_Lotus

I think, my mind is ready. I have been constantly thinking about suicide for, I can’t remember how long. And I tried to get better but only got steadily worse. Now instead of dreams where I am killed by other people, for the last 5 days it is myself that is throwing themselves into the void over and over again.

I have an outdated suicide note in my nightstand. Written a couple of weeks ago… not sure if I should revise it last minute or tear it up completely.

I feel no words could explain why I want to off myself. I failed to convey it to them […]

4/9/2016 7 comments

A song to chill

by Der Wahnsinn 4/7/2016

written by Der Wahnsinn

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aEFxM3Q2kbg
My sickness slips inside you
Drowning in my poison
Desperately I hide too from heaven
Now we’ll be together
I can make you better
Siphon your pain in me, so I bleed

Feed your dreams to fishes
Lie about your wishes
Eat away at your time, seconds are mine
Sometimes it seems we’re toxic
Wake me up and shock it
My low self-esteem
Can make me scream

In my tears
Don’t let me drown
My fears don’t make a sound
My tears
Don’t break me down
In my tears
Don’t let me drown

It’s only my psychosis
Feeling thorns of roses
Fill the void inside me
So you see
Feed me tranquilizers
Calm the storm inside us
It’s so perverse to say
That I’m blind

In my tears
Don’t let me drown
My fears
Don’t make […]

4/7/2016 0 comment

I slit my wrist and say goodbye

by peach_owl 3/18/2016

written by peach_owl

Im a new member and I discovered this website a few days back and I was reading through some posts and I was able to relate.

and yes I’m a cutter. the first time I did that was when I was 15 and now I’m 18

I’ve stopped cutting after a year and recently got back into it really badly. I know its not a good thing and I’m aware of it but it’s frustrating when you have no one to actually support you and know how you feel ( I don’t trust school counselors) no one in the family knows I’ve started again (this time I […]

3/18/2016 13 comments

e m p t y

by darkest_souls 1/29/2016

written by darkest_souls

i feel empty

i feel nothing

i feel like nothing

there’s a void

a hole

and i don’t know how to fill it

how to fill this hole inside me

so deep

and dark

i feel no fear

i feel no sadness

i feel no happiness

no life

who am i???

1/29/2016 6 comments

Feeling weird

by NiDDA 1/25/2016

written by NiDDA

Ever had the feeling of touching something and it doesn’t feel like YOU are the one who’s touching it? What is this feeling. I feel empty indise, but I also feel dizzy and sometimes when I think of something bad I feel hot and angry. I didn’t take any of my meds in the weekend except sleeping pills in the evenings, but I took today’s portion, may be the pills messed me up.

Today I ended a conversation with somebody. He contacted me out of the blue saying he has a method which works 100%, but I needed to tell him about myself so he could […]

1/25/2016 6 comments

I didn’t wish to be…

by nonexistingsoul 1/15/2016

written by nonexistingsoul

At school, my friends was assigned to make a thesis about depression and they made me their subject. They asked me to be their subject and I said yes. I was nervous. I was afraid. I was afraid that some memories, those fucking hurtful devastating memories will come back. But they were my friends so I guess I’m a bit okay with it. After all those question and answer, I thought to myself, What is this? Why am I like this? How did it turn out to be like this? I didn’t choose this fucking depression. They chose me. And why me?! Why the hell […]

1/15/2016 2 comments

Feeling suicidal again

by nbbabydoll 1/14/2016

written by nbbabydoll

I really don’t know where to start. I guess I’ll start by saying I’m transgender…and please no comments about your thoughts on transgenderism.
I’ve been through so much in my life and have so much to be thankful for, but lately I have this deeply engrained feeling like I’ll always be alone and nobody will ever understand me. Some days it’s just all too much and I’ve been desperate for relief.
I guess I’m here because I don’t feel like I have anyone I can tell this to without them wanting to admit me to some psych ward

1/14/2016 1 comment

Feeling low

by Still wandering 1/14/2016

written by Still wandering

Today is bad. No thoughts. I am sad, unable to find out the reason.

Just a moment before I started writing this post, I was thinking about the past when I felt a connection with her for the very first time. It was summer of 2007.

June 2007. 🙂 well I felt little good now. 🙂

I miss our first chats. It was deleted accidentally.(phone updation)
And rest messages were deleted by myself when I was this close to end my life.
I deleted our all conversations.
I deleted my whole notes(kinda journal). (It contained more than 2500 pages. Those pages had so much good memory.
Today I […]

1/14/2016 4 comments

Feeling alone..

by kbking6 1/11/2016

written by kbking6

Despite all my efforts to keep myself from over thinking things and trying to live life, I feel really low and alone today. This mood has just come out of no where and it’s dragging me right down.. Suicidal thoughts slowly creeping in the back of my mind again. I have no one to talk to

1/11/2016 4 comments

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