I wanted to keep trying and i wanted to live, but i literally can’t anymore. Im just a hollow shell of whoever i used to be. I thought that maybe i could be somebody, but i should have known better. Im nothing but a failure. I just want to be able to finally reach happiness i guess.
I don’t know how long I can even go on now. Everything anyone says just hurts to hear and I just want to be able to be strong, but I’m pretty sure thats just an unrealistic dream.
Everyone around me expects so much and they just say ‘Be happy!’ and think that ill magically stop wanting to die and magically stop being depressed. I hate it so much. I haven’t caught a break with whoever I was living with nearly all my life.
I was treated so horribly before and I just want to be able to be treated like a decent person for once instead of having people look down on me and act like im so useless for not being able to do something that they can do. I cant help that i was practically isolated for years and wasnt able to learn about how to do certain things now. I cant help that i dont know how to express or act. i literally wish my family would finally take me seriously alive, because if they don’t, then they might take me seriously if i die.
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every word you said just there is so true it hurts. I cant give you any wise words, but just wanted to let you know I completely feel you. maybe people will start to take this seriously, maybe we might still be somebody. I hope somehow, somewhen you’ll find happiness.