It’s funny isn’t it? We make plans and nine times out of ten they never come to fruition. I feel like my clock is ticking down. Do you remember that music video by Nickelback, I don’t know what song it was for, but it had a guy who could see when people were going to die by using little LED clocks above their heads.
Yeah, I feel like that guy when I look in the mirror, only the time keeps jumping around. I think it’s levelling out and there isn’t much left.
I’m cold and shivering all over and I can’t warm myself up. My legs barely support the weight of my body. My eyes are burning but I can’t cry. I think if I could cry I could let it out like normal people.
There’s people in the house but I don’t care anymore, they’ve seen me at my worst.
I think I might go today, then again I might not. I’ll give myself another reason to stay for another day.
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feel the same way buddy. keep pluggin away for one more day man. we both have a lot more to give even though it seems BEYOND comprehension or strenght we seemingly have left.