There are so many moments during my day where I reach a moment of defeat then quickly resort to thinking suicide is the solution. I notice that the issue is far too deep to fix and I don’t have the energy to be able to fix it. But when it comes to the end of the day where I’m suppose to make the decisions and get the things I need, I go numb.
At this moment of my life I’m soooo bad with choices and it’s making this final one harder.
I just want my suffering to end, my heart is foolish enough to think it’s going to get better but my brain knows it’s unlikely.
I wish I was normal and had normal people problems.
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