I am 17 and have been suicidal from the age of 11. And I am just going to say that all of you need to stay strong. No matter what happends either talk to someone about it or just try to forget about it. I‘ve tried commiting suicide 4 times.
And to be honest I am tired too, I want to kill myself every day. I might have friends but they have enough of problems without even dealing with me. My boyfriend barely talks to me anymore after I told him about everything.
My parents don’t give a shit about me and my siblings have enough of problems.
I have tried to kill myself last night but I am still alive.
I come here and see people that had worse problems than me and are still alive.
even if it doesn’t get better, even if I am completly crushed I don’t show it. I keep the picture of perfect me and don’t let go of it. At one point I started living it.
And I am still not sure is it the right thing to do.
I keep that mask all the time. I dont remember the last time I cried. I want to but I kept the mask on for to long and I cant get it off anymore. I am feeling so helpless right now. I dont have any will to get up in the morning. I dont want to wake up ever again. I just want to close my eyes and just make the pain stop.
I might kill myself and right now I just want to do that so any suggestions for slow and painfull death?
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My suggestion would be to stop wearing the mask a bit at a time and to start showing who you really are, so you can feel comfortable on your own skin. Maybe that will be a start, and i guess it’s a better choice to try it before ending your life. I know i’m no one on an internet blog, but… better to exhaust all options before giving up right? good luck.
I agree with what MF suggest.
If you really want suggestions, I know plenty… just read about biology (also read about how food can affect your mood…
Since your a miner, im not going to give advice on how to commit suicide. 17 was pure hell for me! My best friend drifted apart from me, I was lonely and everyone told me that “things will get better”. I been hearing that since i was 6 from medical professionals, teachers, parents, friends etc. At 31 my life just keeps getting worse.
I know how you feel, i have my best friend who we both are open to and are very very close. She helps so much and i help her so much. Maybe try opening up slowly to one of your closest friends, if not then thats your choice. But i hope everything works well for you.