I really hate myself for everything.. I lost the love of my life to another guy and honestly I’m gonna end this all. The only reason I wake up is to see her and hear her she’s the reason I live but all that has changed. I wish she’d give me one more chance to prove I’m not like this that I was just making mistakes! I really wanna say sorry for it all! I know I wasn’t the best Aiyana but I’m in love with you I’ve cried about this every day, I couldn’t eat and I went to the hospital, I don’t know what to do I just wish you’d give me a chance like you said you would.. just be here for me like I was with you! I promise we could fix this all and everything could be better! You’re the only thing that is gonna stop me from doing this and I know you probably don’t care about what I’m saying but if you call me or text me and just listen I can tell you everything! I love you for you I never want you to change and yes I should have done better to make you feel special but I was being dumb! You’re the most amazing girl ever and without you.. I’m not gonna be alive I refuse.. just please hear what I have to say and please think about me and all we have been through I just want one chance… ???????? I love you baby girl
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You shouldn’t post photos of an ex-girlfriend, or anyone else, on a public site without their permission (even if you’re using anonymous aliases). Also, no matter how sad and remorseful you might be, threatening suicide because someone ended a relationship with you is NOT the way to go. That is manipulative behavior. Not very nice at all.
If you really wanted to love her you would have treated her well in the first place and not intentionally done anything that could have caused her to give up on you. Yes, we all make mistakes, but some mistakes cross the line (and perhaps that’s what happened with you). Take this as an example of the RIGHT way to act in the future – to always be respectful, kind, considerate, and honest in a relationship, and stay true to your commitment.
shut up already
We both should of done better I wasn’t perfect neither was she but I’d fight for this.. I guess we will see in the end I really do care and I care enough to fight for her and honestly I have nothing to live for so after her.. ima go back to trying to kill myself again cause I had nothing
Well, don’t kill yourself over her… If you’re truly suicidal (with or without her) that’s another story, but if it’s only that you feel as if you simply cannot live if she is not in your life… in time that would pass. A bit of a waste to die for that reason when you could go on in life and have more experiences, and do things you’ve never done.
I have nothing to fall back on cause I gave it all for her. Ill be in the hospital soon cause I can’t hold back these pills. Just know I regret everything that fucked us up.. if she reads this I’m sorry for breaking your promise
I just want her in my life idc how but I do.
If she doesn’t care about you alive… she won’t care about you dead either. A waste of life to do this over another person, if you ask me. What I do is give myself one more day to live. Next day comes, and I decide to give myself another day. And so on and so forth.
Nah I’m fine I’ll decide to die
Well none of us here know your story or situation. You know everyone says this exact same kind of stuff though right? when someone leaves them because of some kind of physical, mental, or emotional abuse, its a cliche a broken record. “You know me that isn’t the kind of person I really am, it was just a mistake” (no matter how many times those same mistakes repeat themselves.) “I swear on my life! just give me one more chance! I will die without you! It will never happen again!” (no matter how many times you might have already failed to keep that same promise)
The problem is we never meant to hurt them in the first place. If we actually had that kind of control over our emotions and actions we wouldn’t have to beg for forgiveness because we would have never done anything that we would need to be forgiven for. If someone had asked us before we did it the first time we would say no I could never do that to someone I love. Most people are just in denial though, they make excuses, or justifications for what they do. Try to rationalize it and say now they know better. Except the next time you are in that situation rational thought is just blown away in the face of uncontrollable emotion and it just becomes a repeat performance.
Living in denial is not going to solve whatever it is that pushed this girl away and caused her to leave. These kind of problems or issues don’t usually just magically go away on their own. If you really want to earn another chance you should put in the effort to prove that something might actually be different the next time. Figure out what caused the problems and try to take steps to rectify it. Like if you have an uncontrollable temper go to anger management, see a therapist about it, maybe get some medication to help take the edge off your temper. If you are an alcoholic go to AA or rehab or do a 12 step or whatever.
Oh and like Opacity said the whole “if you don’t take me back I am going to kill myself” Is extremely manipulative emotional blackmail.
I’m not saying ima kill myself if she’s not with me! It’s just hard to live without her cause she’s everything and she’s been here for me! That’s why I want to die cause I couldn’t lose that!
Hi Bro,
First of all just wanted to say sorry about what you are going through and that i can exactly understand how you feel because I am going through the same situation too and its been quite a few months.
To be honest, for this situation that you and I have gone through has good and bad sides to it.
The bad is obviously how you beg her to come back to you and how sorry you are and give you a proper second chance..?? rite?? and then you want her so back and you regret doing the mistake what you’ve done. This has led you to see her change and move away and she stops caring for you and things like, basically shes got her space, shes doing things by herself, shes got her own things handled…and more…!!!!
Bro, I still haven’t left her but she did, and i haven’t stop trying since then….and i will never stop……all i want is her to get back to me and this is what she said…..she said give her space, stop trying to get her back so much, if she loves you she told that she would get back to you when she feels that she is convinced by you…all this should not mean that you leave her and stop talking to her and stuff like that kk….you should definitely try for all it to get her back ok bro….She says that you give her the space she needs and then you yourself get your own space….oki…its just that it’ll take its own time…She also told me that “I should get another girl and i should fall for her and then when im in a relationship with that new girl…later when i break up with her and the reason behind that break up would be the girl you loved before…then when you go tell her that i broke up with her cause i wasnt happy with her like i was with you” she told me that then she would understand that i love her and that i was craving for a proper second chance.
Bro i am being truly honest with you and all this is from the inside of my heart. Just wait bro and give her space and time and freedom that she knows that you understand her and knows what shes going through oki..
We are there for you and you are there for me i guess….cause ive been more experienced in this situation..take care bro.
Love you. Just take a deep breath and sit and pray or meditate.
Know she doesn’t give a fuck at this point. Go cold and say fuck it and power forward. Forget ever killing yourself over a fucking human being! Forget that shit. That’s ***** shit. This girl no matter how much of a gem she was ain’t worth your life. Pull up your socks and man up. You’ll find a new girl in a month or so. She’ll be old news.