My ex boyfriend and I broke up 9 months ago, it feels like it happened just last week. How easily he could move on, just left me there waiting for him. He wasn’t man enough to tell me he had found someone else, instead he led me on thinking that we were still on a “break”… Having to find the truth out myself was so heart wrenching, would not ever comprehend why he could not be upfront about it. Months and months pass and he will come back looking for a friendship not knowing i was still in love with him, having to see him happy with someone else break my heart little by little. All of the time and energy i invested on him, gave myself to him, gave him every bit of love i had to him, gave him patience. Just to then get screwed over at the end. To get betrayed, what a horrible heartbreak.. i don’t even know what’s true love anymore. I haven’t spoke to any guy since then. I mean I want to be happy but my heart wont allow someone in again.
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Well I can say your love is true and if it wasn’t true love your heart wasn’t broken that is Beautiful:-)
I don’t know why these people keep trying to be our friends. It depends our personality and theirs. Mine is to move on I can’t be or see the person ever again. Maybe not in the next 10 years “lol”
I had one relationship that lasted couple of years, I had an awful time trying to get through it but I swore myself the only way was never talking to the person again. It’s a long process for me.. I still have this person on my Facebook.. but month by month I delete from my list friends of this person, that I was introduced to, the ones that I met just for being at the same place, etc
For me it’s complicated.I let go very slowly. I thought I found a bit of happiness in my last relationship (another one) but it’s all over again. Maybe the problem is me? Or them? Who knows? Should I go on? Clearly I’m not happy. And my heart wasn’t broken this time, it was crushed. I’m on the same boat as you, I feel soul-less (not that I believe in it, it’s just I’m empty). I don’t think I’ll ever be open again to anyone.
He’s clearly a shallow, cowardly, and codependent person, who can’t survive unless he has constant attention. Do you know what this means? You’re much better than this, and therefore you deserve better. He’ll probably do to the new girl what he did to you, since he’s so weak-willed and indecisive. People like this jump from relationship to relationship because they are searching for something they haven’t found within themselves – and they’re too weak to actually just break up with someone and stay alone so that they can learn who they are and how to survive on their own without the external validation that romantic prospects falsely give. (Without this ‘false hope’ they probably go back to hating themselves because they’re unable to grasp their own gifts and flaws.) So, be glad you’re stronger than that.
Stay single for now, and when you are ready you will meet someone who is hopefully deserving of your time and care. (Watch out for any red flags.)
I don’t think he’s necessarily “shallow,” but more of maybe “scared,” or “weak” or “insecure,” “human” if you will. We’re all people and we all make mistakes, this person is probably like that. True, he probably should have just strait up dumped you, or realized you were a much better person then what he might have got, and that was definitely his fault, but he is still a person. I feel like you’re beating yourself up for his mistake. I may not be able to help you out in person, but I hope you realize that this was his doing, and that you are an amazing person who is worth everything anybody can give. You have such a capacity for love, as I have seen in this paragraph, and can help out so many people, I wish the best of luck to you, cheers.