Where I’m at

I haven’t been on here in a while. I have had some up and downs. I’m thinking very strongly about this still. I’ve been seeing a counselor, I’m taking medication, I’ve done everything on my own to try and feel better, reach out… I will be sending my son to visit his dad in Aug. I think if by then I still feel the same, that will be the time to do it. I will  have a few rough patches I know, things are still changing for me. Change can be good, and usually in my case, I’m ready for it when it comes around. I don’t think I can ever be “normal” again. I’m tired and I feel like crap… mentally, emotionally, physically. If this doesn’t change, I think that I will. I serve no other purpose if I do not have my son… he will be taken care of.