I wake up thinking how will i die. I go to school planning how i could die. I go home wishing to die. I sleep dreaming of dying. I cant get death off my mind..
I understand. The saddest thing is I’m prepared to die at any time. During the winter my car spun out and I just sat back and let whatever happened happen. Strangely I wasn’t scared at all. My heart was racing but I think it was anticipation. Don’t think too hard on this please but I heard you will never experience more Bliss and comfort and clarity than you will when you’re dying. No doupt dying would be a release but in reality no one is ever really ready to die because we don’t know what comes next an there’s always that thing in the back of our head that we know for a fact we’re going to miss out on, at least for me and I think that’s why my several attempts of suicide clearly didn’t work. Death will come when its good and ready. If I’m still here I want you to stay to
As pleasant as it may sound to look forward to any good, i strongly attempted many times and obviously never worked.. maybe you are right that im not legit “ready” to die. Or maybe i never tried enough…
you are no alone, it is a rotten way to exist, I hate thinking about it all the time, you have to be fair, be fair? yeah to your self! time to think about what you have going for you, what it is you would miss if you were gone, you need a reason to fight, thinking negative 24hrs isn’t going to help the struggle.
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i can understand you.. its very depressing
I understand. The saddest thing is I’m prepared to die at any time. During the winter my car spun out and I just sat back and let whatever happened happen. Strangely I wasn’t scared at all. My heart was racing but I think it was anticipation. Don’t think too hard on this please but I heard you will never experience more Bliss and comfort and clarity than you will when you’re dying. No doupt dying would be a release but in reality no one is ever really ready to die because we don’t know what comes next an there’s always that thing in the back of our head that we know for a fact we’re going to miss out on, at least for me and I think that’s why my several attempts of suicide clearly didn’t work. Death will come when its good and ready. If I’m still here I want you to stay to
As pleasant as it may sound to look forward to any good, i strongly attempted many times and obviously never worked.. maybe you are right that im not legit “ready” to die. Or maybe i never tried enough…
Souless ,
you are no alone, it is a rotten way to exist, I hate thinking about it all the time, you have to be fair, be fair? yeah to your self! time to think about what you have going for you, what it is you would miss if you were gone, you need a reason to fight, thinking negative 24hrs isn’t going to help the struggle.