Minutes feel like hours days feel like years.Can’t get these fleeting thoughts of misery out of my head.I’m nearing the end I can feel it.I climb the 8 floors of an open parking garage multiple times a week trying to gather the courage to toss myself over the edge and end all the torment that I feel inside .I can’t get any peace no matter what I do I end up feeling so alone so sad so empty .I failed there’s nothing else to do nothing else to say.
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The best advice anyone has ever given me it to just breath, to stop thinking or doing anything for a short period of time to simply help you relax. Don’t preasure yourself to do anything, take a break from work or school because it sounds like you deserve it.
In the end it’s up to you what you end up doing, suicide isn’t wrong but it is permanent. Think this through and good luck. 🙂
when we’re at the end we’re forced to face the reality of our circumstances and the prospect of escaping them, no matter what the method of escaping is whether physically, mentally/emotionally, or through death. Evaluate your circumstances and analyze what the best and most realistic course of action is. If there is something creating this emptiness then takes steps to alleviate it, is it isolation? intrinsic emptiness? lack of ambition? lack of passion or desires? all of those can be treated through one way or another, although the significance of their effect and the effort it takes to attain them varies. If you can’t find a solution or even a compromise to settle for then yes, it is time to dedicate yourself to finding methods of suicide, research it very meticulously and thoroughly, screwing up suicide can very well leave you in a worse condition than before. Dedicate yourself completely to suicide, look at every possible route and how you can realistically apply them to your life. If you really want to commit suicide then suicide most be your complete priority. Get busy living or get busy dying they say
I wonder if 8 stories is high enough to guarantee success. The last thing you need is surviving your attempt with injuries so severe, you won’t have the ability to try again. As someone who is also on the brink, I wish both of us success.