I am a girl in high school. I don’t have a lot of friends and recently I quarreled with my so-called best friend. I used to have lunch and go back home with her every day. Now that we have had a fight, we no longer talk. I need to ask someone else to go back home and have lunch with me every single day. I feel like I am bringing troubles to people. I feel like they are just too nice so they wouldn’t refuse me even though they really think that I am annoying. I don’t dare talking to my so-called friends about it as I am afraid that they would judge me and find me weird and leave me eventually. I always have problems trusting people. I also don’t dare talking to my parents about it because I don’t want them to think that I am lonely, weak and friendless. They always tell me that I should tell them about what I am thinking but I simply can’t bring myself to do so. I don’t wanna let them down.
I have a boyfriend and he is the nicest guy I have ever met. He always talks to me when I am sad and encourages and cheers me up. He really is a good guy but I feel like I am a burden to him. He deserves someone better than me. And I am starting to worry that if I always tell me about my negatives thoughts, even he would decide to leave me one day. I never manage to keep my childhood friends or friends from middle school.
And Facebook is indeed a place to totally destroy people. All the happy posts with A LOT OF friends just upset me. Why do they get so many good friends while I have none? Am I much more inferior than them?
Well although I get good grades at school, it really doesn’t mean anything when there are almost no trustworthy people around you. Everything sucks. People may envy me for having good results but they never know how much I wish to become someone else. Someone who is more extrovert, optimistic and sociable…..
Sometimes I feel like it is simply not worth it to live. So much trouble with merely a bit of happiness…
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if you feel as though your boyfriend is too good for you you should probably break up. imbalanced relationship are destined to end badly and your insecurity will make you less inclined to participate in the relationship and it’s just going to go down hill from there.
especially if you feel the need to censor things from him. relationships are founded on trust and if you can’t trust him to stay if you have problems that means he’s a shitty person and you should leave asap.
or maybe the writer could be projecting on him,idk
I think they said that from a subjective perspective
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ackerman, i tell him everything and I really trust him and only him. He also promises he would always be there for me. But my low self-esteem just makes me insecure but I am already a bit better.
Your bf sounds like a good support system. Maybe you should trust your parents a little more and open up to them. They may not have any solutions, but if they care for you like parents are supposed to, then they will want to help you. Maybe seeing a therapist will help you deal with your struggles. Good luck.
I need a friend. We’re going through some of the same things. I give good advice I just want someone to talk to. I’m a 16 year old girl BTW I’m not trying to be a creep… but can you help me help you?
worthless_loser 73, thank you so much for your reply. I really should talk to my parents about it. I need some support
Angel little, ofc we can be friends. Just talk to me. We all need some friends.