So I’ve been seeing this therapist for a year and it’s in the public sector and free. Just recently been told my time is up with her. IM GUTTERED AND DEVASTATED to say the least!!
I shared so much with her my past traumas as a child then adult. That no one knew about. I could tell her anything. She listened she cared. I’m in so much pain that I’m losing her out of my life. Can’t imagine not having her it’s causing me huge suicidal thoughts. She trumps my own family and friends. She means everything to me.
I have huge attachment problems with people and awful attachment to my own mum growing up. Avoidant unemotionally available parents!!
This has absolutely crashed me I think about her all day and night.
Can anyone relate losing someone and the intensity is so strong and the loss so painful you Can’t imagine living???
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no. havent felt loss for years. well my ex late last year but i drank that away in a week. then i broke up with her for revenge — best served cold.
I have experienced that with my previous therapist. I was completely devastated. After a while I went to another and she died on me.
It is such a loss. Maybe you can speak about this with her as you go through termination period.
also sitting in the other chair (being both sides) to say goodbye to a client is also very difficult and often I mourn the loss