Selfish, yes, but not more selfish, I would say. Although, depending on circumstances, it could be argued that your family begging you to live is less selfish, as they have multiple people in mind, including you, and possibly believe that things will get better for you and don’t want you to miss out on that. I would still consider that equally “selfish” for reasons that may or may not be in their subconscious. In other words, it still benefits them in one way or another, whether they’re consciously driven by that potential benefit or not. But in the general use of the word “selfish”, I suppose it could be argued. Hopefully that makes some sort of sense.

Anyway, just wanted to say something since it’s your first post here and I didn’t want it to go “unanswered”. Although posting and reading is an interaction in itself. Sorry about your friends leaving, too. A lot of people seem to have a pretty low threshold when it comes to dealing with that sort of thing.