This is my first time posting on here, but I really feel alone right now. Even when I’m with my family I still feel lonely. All my friends left me when they found out I have depression. I’ve been suffering from it for 5 years now and about a month ago I tried to commit suicide. all I can think about is commiting suicide again except this time I will make sure I succeed. Ive been working on a plan since I got out of the hospital. I can’t keep going on like this I need my suffering to end. Ive been cutting for A few years now but I can’t cut deep enough anymore And burning myself isnt easing the pain anymore either. I can’t live in this darkness anymore I feel like I’m drowning. I lost all feelings a while back and have become so detached from everything I can’t even recognize myself. All my family says suicide is the most selfish thing to do but is it really more selfish than them begging me to live with this suffering? I can’t go on like this anymore.