So me and my momma aren’t talking. Well I’m not talking to her. My depression really affects her the worse. She’s seen me at my worst and in rehab. I’ve fought her. We argue like crazy and I’m not very respectful. I mostly take all my anger out on her because of some childhood shxt that I won’t get into. Point is we aren’t talking because she said I don’t respect her. Which is 100% true.
I’m gonna break this down. Imma horrible fckn person. I cut myself. I’ve tried to kill myself. I don’t bellieve in myself. I don’t love myself. So how in the hell could I ever be anything to anybody. If I treat myself the way I do, then I could never treat anybody else better.
So with this epiphany, I told my momma I’d stop talking to her cause I can’t be respectful, loving and caring.
Am I wrong?
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I completely understand, I go through the same damn thing. But, yet again my mom is the person I can depend on. I love my mother even when I don’t. I can never tell her enough because she’s always drunk. I’ve been cutting since the 5th grade. Today was the worst, people everywhere asking me what happened, bandages covering my entire arm. Nobody has a clue because i show a different person on the outside. That was just me ranting, sorry. Anyways, i don’t think you should stop talking to your mom. She does love you. No matter what, sometimes all you need to do is talk. you don’t have to agree with each other, just kind of understand from eachothers point of you. stay strong.