General Contemplating by imysmith24 5/16/2015 written by imysmith24 5/16/2015 I’m sitting on my bed staring at six ibuprofen tablets knowing its not enough to kill me but still wanting to take them at the same time I’m not sure I’ll be able to cope with a failed attempt enoughfailedkill mewanting 9 comments 0 Email Related posts back here yet again. 9/24/2021 The solution is in my closet 9/24/2021 “we blame the people that did it/the people... 9/23/2021 I don’t even… 9/23/2021 Soulmates as Teenagers 9/23/2021 WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE SUCH ASSHOLE NEIGHBORS? 9/23/2021 I AM GOD 9/23/2021 I’m so tired 9/22/2021 I know it’s my fault 9/22/2021 tired 9/21/2021 9 comments alliwantislovenhappiness 5/16/2015 - 5:08 am It won’t work. You will just throw up n then be mad. Maybe you need to tell the ppl closest to you like family or best friend how you are feeling. I think more than anything you just want to be loved and reassured that you are important and loved and deserve to have attention and affection. Sometimes our fam n friends don’t know how deep we are hurting until we tell them. Log in to Reply I_just_want_2Bhappy 5/16/2015 - 5:15 am Ibuprofen is long and slow. Takes years of misuse to die – stomach ulcers, liver failure, kidney failure. We don’t even test for it in the ER because you can’t technically “O/D” on it. Did you read the “Read this First” page? It helped me. I agree about reaching out for help and telling someone how you feel. Log in to Reply QuietlyBleeding 5/16/2015 - 5:54 am Im laying on my bed about to cut. Dont take the pills ive already tried overdosing and it didnt work. Log in to Reply QuietlyBleeding 5/16/2015 - 5:57 am But talking to a counselor feels good. Doesn’t help worth shit but it feels good. Because he or she helps you go back in time to traumatic experiences in your life that you originally didnt see as traumatic and you will begin to understand why you hate life. I hate life because my life isnt going anywhere and theres no point of living to be honest. We are all trapped in a prison of control called life. Im trying to escape but i need a gun. Log in to Reply QuietlyBleeding 5/16/2015 - 5:59 am But dont talk to anyone else besides a counselor. Why? Because the only thing other people will say is “oh i understand how you feel” or some other bullshit lie when normal happy people dont know shit about how we feel because they never experienced the full extent of depression. Its much more than what these normal fuckers out here think. Its on a totally deeper level Log in to Reply MoonShine 5/16/2015 - 6:39 am instead of them , you should take some anti depressants. Log in to Reply ChronicPainHell 5/18/2015 - 4:18 pm Hmmm. Not sure about anti-depressants. I took Prozac for 3 years and Celexa for 3 years and I’m not convinced they really helped me that much. And getting off of them is a *****. With Celexa the room was spinning. It was a rough few months getting off that drug. And, with both drugs I gained 40 lbs in about 2 months. They really screwed up my metabolism. I’m not saying don’t take anti-depressants. Sometimes they’re needed in life or death situations but some of the side effects can be pretty serious. Log in to Reply bleekforesight 5/16/2015 - 9:32 am From experience I would not suggest it. You run the risk of not achieving your goal and possibly damaging vital organ and cause yourself more pain and anguish. I tried that method twice about 7 years ago. The first attempt cause 2 days of vomiting and weaks of recovery do to the damage to my throat and intestines from the excessive dry heaving and vomiting. Second attempt damaged my right kidney beyond repair. The kidney still functions but in a deminished compasity. Hope this helps and you find what you seek one way or the other. Log in to Reply curfde 5/17/2015 - 12:09 am OTC won’t work just saying, anyone knows that you cant OD on OTC ibruprofen’s you’ll just throw up and/or burn your stomach a lot. So I’ll be honest just find another way or rethink things. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.